☙ ''Do you have no regard for human life?''
''In this position, I can't.''
The world is crumbling and with it, is their relationship. War is coming and with it comes another tale of lost love- and found. ☙
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Levi stalked down the corridor, his mind split in two, the anger barely outweighing the fear for Erwin. Erwin was their leader, he didn't break because he was invincible and now here Levi was, fetching him something to make him feel better after the worst hangover Levi had ever seen. And because of him. All because of him. Although Levi refused to blame himself, after all, it was not his fault that he ended it but he had to admit that without the torturous chain of events that he was apart of, none of this would have occurred.
As Erwin had warned him from the very beginning, love would be his poison. Levi let himself be that poison and somehow, he didn't regret that at all. Maybe that was what made him such a terrible person. Levi refused guilt, refused to feel pity or helplessness. Levi enjoyed what they had and hated how it ended. But from what he had heard, that was how all relationships went.
But nothing about their relationship had been normal. It wasn't supposed to be. They had started it and ended it perfectly but everything in between was a blur of hate and anger and fighting. Levi still did not regret it.
Levi didn't regret much. He would always try and pick the choice with no regrets, even if that was impossible. In situations where it was, he wouldn't let himself feel that guilt, no matter how hard it was.
Suddenly, his mind flashed to Isabel and Farlan. Maybe he could accept that there was one thing he was guilty of- or, at least, felt guilty for. That was his fault in a way that his and Erwin's relationship could not be. He left them, he let them die and no vengeance could cure that.
At least with Erwin, he knew that it was beneficial to both of them, even if the short-term effects didn't seem worth it.
Winding down through the headquarter, he lets his mind drift again, his feet moving monotonously as his mind took its own path. He let himself ignore that crippling guilt of the events that happened nearly a decade ago and tried to replace it with the good memories- to which there were few. But, they were growing. Each day, he knew he was making a few more.
He had to thank Eren for that. Eren with his shining eyes and buzzing personality; he was the perfect contrast to Levi and Levi couldn't punish him for that. Whilst he and Erwin had so much in common, Eren and he had very little. Yet, the attraction was the same.
And yes, maybe that was another thing to feel guilty about. Yes, he had fallen for Eren when he and Erwin were still together. And yes, their relationship was developing already. But, he could not fault himself for it. He and Erwin were over months before Levi said those words. Whether Erwin was away or 'tired' it made little to no difference in their lack of any romance or even friendship. Levi felt that speaking to Erwin today had been the first time in months.
But maybe this was all down the drain now. Stupid Eren for sticking up to his commander. Levi knew that the kid had some sort of creepy fascination for his superiors- far more adoration than it was lust- but Levi felt uncomfortable with the fact that Eren had chosen Erwin over him. Something didn't stick right with him and Levi promised himself that he would talk to Eren about it when he found him again. After caring for Erwin, of course.
