The truth... Now what do I do?

Chapter 13

              *Hadrian*

It's now been a month since Natalia slipped into a coma, a month since my fourth year started, and a month since I told the Malfoys about the daughter. Every weekend I come to the potter manor, sometimes with Severus, and I check up on my beautiful angle. Sometimes the Malfoys will be there already since I added them to the wards. The 'champions' for the Triwizard tournament have been chosen. Of course I was among them as the youngest due to Dumbledick. The first task will start after the yule ball, in a month.

Since I was chosen, Sev has been more clingy, tho I don't mind.  But the most me and Severus have done is make out. I still refuse to go any further tho, I wont undress in front of him either. I know i would lose him if he saw my hideous body. My creature is getting annoyed tho.

He wants to dominant Severus but I fight against it. I can't hold off for much longer tho...

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Today is yet another Saturday and I head over to Potter Manor. When i get there, I'm greeted by healer Mary and Mrs. Malfoy, I look at them curiously. 

They both give me a smile and walk up to the hospital wing, with me fallowing. When we get there, I see my beautiful angle sitting up and reading a book. I rush over and kiss her head, hugging her tightly to me. 

Natalia giggles and hugs me back, "Where's the fire, Har-bear?" I smile, tearing up, "I thought I lost you angle." She looks up at me, "I'm fine Hadrian. Me and Lily Ann are fine darling. There's no need to worry anymore, mother or healer Mary will be with me at all times now."

My angle smiles at me, "You should invite your mate and friends over next weekend for dinner. i want to to meet them properly." I smile at my best friend and nod my head, "Of course love."

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For the next two hours, I tell my angle everything that has happened since she feel asleep. Of course she freaked out about me being in the tournament. After I told her that there was nothing anyone could do to change it, she calmed down some. Then she asked me about Severus and this leads us to now. Natalia throwing anything and everything.

"Natalia! Stop that!" her mother yelled. After throwing one last book at me, she stopped but still was glaring at me. I just stare in shock at my angle, what the hell just happened?!

As if reading my mind, Narcissia said, "What did he do baby girl?" Natalia answered without looking away from me, "He hasn't marked Severus like he should have. He's making his mate feel worse about himself. He spends all his weekends with me! Yes, I'm your marked, best friend, and mother of your first child but HE'S YOUR MATE!" She growls at me. I just stare at her, my mouth opening and closing, making me look like a fish no doubt. 

Cissia looks at me, "Why haven't you claimed him?" I sigh deeply and sit down heavily on the chair. "I'm embarrassed okay! I just feel like he will reject you me when he seeing all my scars... What if it tuns out that he doesn't want me..."I tell them. 

Natalia sighs, "He wont leave you Har-bear. You can't let your past stop your future. We will have Lily and you will be happy with Severus, if you let yourself be. You can't hide from him, he wont hurt you Hadrian. He isn't your uncle, don't be afraid to be with him and learn to love him."

I let out a soft laugh, I wince at hearing pain in it, "I already love him. What if he doesn't love me back or doesn't want me after he sees...." I trail off. Natalia and her mom look at me with pity, I wince.

"Darling, just tell him thought and soon o he will begin to doubt himself and think you dont want him. He might try something bad..." Narcissia says. At that I shot up from my chair, eyes wide, "You don't think he would... kill himself... Right?!?!" Cissia stays quite and I run from the room, quickly going home to my mate. I hope he doesn't try anything... Please don't leave me, my love...

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                      *Severus Snap* (After Hadrian left)

I sigh as I watch my mate leave once again to go visit Natalia. It's been a month since she fell into a coma, since Hadrian told us what they went through, and a month since he got picked to be in the triwizard tournament. 

Hadrian still wont touch me. Maybe he doesn't want me. Does he regret being my mate? Does he won't out? Does he not want me? Would he be happy without me? Will he ever really love me?

Tears slowly start to fall at the though of my mate hating me. Maybe i should make it easier for him?... Maybe I should leave. I shake my head, 'No I can't leave Hadrian. I cant think like that! But... what if it makes him happy? He can be happy with Natalia and their baby... He wouldn't have to worry about me and I won't mess anything up."

I nod my head at that though, 'Yes I can't mess anything up if I'm no longer here right?' I get up and go to my rooms.

Once I'm there, I begin to pack my things, 'I will leave before he gets back. Therefor I cant hurt him and wont be in his way anymore.'

After thirty minutes of packing, i stop, 'No i can't just leave. He will still feel the bound and he could come looking for me. I can't let that happen.'

I sit down and begin thinking. Then a though comes to me. 'If I'm... dead, he can be with Natalia because he's veela will mark Natalia as his second mate... Then I'll make a potion so that I can't hurt my dominant.' Nods my head, determined and I go to my potions books and begin looking through them.

After about twenty minutes I come across the perfect potion, The Draught of living death. I quickly look over the list and then go to my personal lab. I get out all the ingredients and being the potion.

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After an hour and a half the potion is done. I quickly put some into a bottle and write a quick not to my mate.

Dear Hadrian,

Hello my love. When you get this I should already be gone. The draught of living death will have killed me with the amount i have. I want nothing more than you to be happy. I can't do that... I will never be enough for someone so amazing as yourself  and I hope you will forgive me. Be happy with Ms. Natalia and your daughter. 

I love you with all my heart Hadrian.

Goodbye, 

Severus Snap

Once that's done I fold it and put it on the top of my desk with his name on the top. I grab the semi-large bottle up and take a deep breath, whispering, "I love you Hadrian."

I tilt my head back, the bottle in between my lips, and I feel the sting of the potion on my tongue...