Tell me you love me. (Jahvie)

Chapter 31- Damage like a Savage :P

Solemn bone,

Solemn heart,

Why did the world,

Make such an art?

His hands clutched,

And tears in his eyes,

Always something waiting,

For the next surprise.

He doesn't find any comfort,

He doesn't find completion,

Wandering helplessly,

Lost in the dark,

Waiting for one,

To save his broken heart.

(Just something I wrote, I thought I should share it with you guys! :D I love you all, don't forget that.. It seems like wattpad outside of school is the only place I feel complete.. Thank you guys for making my life amazing. <3

~ Jenny_Von_Vanity)

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NATE'S POV-

I clutched my hands as I snuggled under the bed, I was falling in love.

I repeat, Nate Von Vanity is falling in love. I can't believe this.. Love doesn't like me, and I possibly can't get along with love.. Whenever I take my chances on love, all I do is fuck up. Making the other person heart broken and torn, like they didn't even matter. I always look over that before I sleep, remembering my horrid mistakes.

Well, you probably don't know what happened..

I had a boyfriend..

I was so in love with a boy in fifth grade, we started to date, and I was so lovestruck. I heard he cheated sometimes, but I didn't care, he was mine and only mine. I knew he wouldn't do that shit with me.

I broke up with him later in the summer. Breaking his heart when he did completely nothing wrong.

I was just being a self centered bitch.

Later on, I wanted him back but I was too scared to talk to him, he started to date the ex he broke up with before to date me. Later in November the girl dumped him, and he asked me out again, I said yes, needing him back into my life.

Our relationship ended after a month, he liked another person- a girl. Of course, not a boy sadly. He asked her out and their relationship fell in reverse. He fell into depression due to missing me. Later on in February he asked me out again, a few days before he asked me out last year. He said he wanted a new start; a new beginning; a chance. He changed a lot, before he was just some cute asshole I happened to fall in love with.

But now, he was an adorable, sweet, kind guy who was really shy. I said yes and our relationship lasted two months, that's when I decided I didn't love him because I was so ignorant to let my feelings take over for another guy. He hated me and I regretted dumping him, I dumped him so harshly I can't even. I was such a jerk to him an never even gave him that chance he wanted. Every night I think about him, I wanna apologize, but I know I can't. Due to Ashton and him being Besties, I'm forced to see him. I miss him though..

Maybe I will give this guy a try. But I might damage him. I like to think that I'm a ticking time bomb waiting to explode when it comes with love.

The feeling of love always reminds me of my parent's songs, 'Damaged' or 'Divided we fall.'