When you Say Goodbye

Committed Relationship

By end of that summer, Ditiya suddenly wanted to be able to have a committed relationship. So she started dating a mid thirty year's old man Christian Masen. For a while, it had seemed promising. As a divorced man, he was an amazing father. Christian was protective and caring toward his young girl. Ditiya had only met his daughter Chloe only once. Young girls like a live concert, and so Ditiya thought it might be nice to take Chloe to see The Magic Gang. Unfortunately, the idea of the live concert hadn't gone well. Chloe had always hated music with a funky beat or anything by the magic gang, and Christian had seemed to want Ditiya to deal with the girl.

Ditiya had tried but Chloe didn't know her and she didn't know Chloe and the entire day had become strained and uncomfortable. Ditiya had tried-unsuccessfully-to make the night as much fun as possible.

Shortly thereafter. Christian called to tell her their relationship wasn't "working" for him. He had made a point of letting her know he was interested in finding someone more 'suitable' for his daughter because he didn't feel she would make a good mother. His words had stung.

Ditiya hadn't argued with him. Really. How could she? Her one experience with Chloe had been a disaster.

Dating Christian Masen had been enjoyable enough, but there had never been much chemistry between them. So not seeing him was not a huge loss. She categorized it as more of a disappointment. A letdown. His parting words, however, had left her with doubts that she never could be a good mother and regrets that she could not be good enough for anyone.

After that, she again ends up having dosages of some physical relationship and didn't look for emotional relationships.

Ditiya dated two men in later three months. One was married and went out with her twice, but he dropped her when his wife threatened him with divorce, he was the one who seemed most interested in Ditiya. Others one, she dropped him as soon as she found out he had a child. Although she was interested in him, she was scared of another rejection from a kid; especially to a teenage boy Again, Ditiya was feeling depressed and out-of-control because she couldn't keep a boyfriend.

Then on the morning of her 28th birthday, Ditiya woke up to an early morning phone call from her parents. "Hap... .py, happy birth... .day to you! Your mother loves you..." Ditiya laughed as her mother continued to sing her own little birthday song in wavering voice from the phone.

"Well. it's your birthdays, and it's not a usual one. Now that you're getting older, we need to help you plan for the future. I think you should take a look at the email I have sent you yesterday" Ditiya's father, Mr. Virk's voice came through the phone's speaker sounding serious as well as commanding.

Ditiya immediately looked on her phone and clicked on the envelope icon, opened her mail. She really wasn't surprised to see her father's email, as this was becoming routine. An actual list—of potential husbands. Her typical father and she knew that they wanted her to marry. Perhaps at twenty-eight, she was someone else's property and a debt on her own parents

"What is this for?" She asked, her voice sounds irritated and impatient.

"I think you know what it's for, dear," her mother said, and this time her voice sounded firm and patient, but not pretended cheerful anymore, "It's time you... you don't do any well-constructed job and nothing, no direction in your life."

"What your ma saying is that you're at the age where you should be thinking of settling down with some well-balanced man, we should be clear to you, you're way past that age. This is something we would hope you should think of by yourself."

"But... but I don't want to get married not yet," Ditiya said, she shook her head in disagreement, or maybe denial. Marriage was something that she had never considered to be for herself. She didn't really know what love was. She was only used to having to accept loss or cheats and deal with the grief associated with it.