Are you?
Are you sorry.
Are you sorry that you are doing this to yourself?
Sometimes I feel like you enjoy it.
That you don't actually care if you lived or died.
I know it's a selfish thought.
But I can't help but feel like you don't actually want to get better.
It's difficult.
And I'm trying to help you.
I'm a hypocrite.
I tell you that it'll take time and baby steps but somehow I still expect you to be better.
I know it's not out of attention.
But I still feel like you want to feel bad about yourself.
This is real.
This is life or death.
This is everything you love.
There was something I once came across that went along the lines, "Sometimes we don't get rid of our demons because we don't want to."
If we feel as if our demons are protecting us, then we won't let go.
As humans, we have an addiction with pain.
