I miss him.
I don't know if its better like this.
Didn't he love me?
I hate his damn self so much.
He was never supposed to have this effect on me.
But no matter how hard I try to have him I always get discouraged.
Why did it have to be like this?
Couldn't you have tried harder for me?
Was I too much for you?
I miss your sweet words and your lovely hugs.
In the beginning you fought so hard for me.
I go back to all the small things you used to do for me.
When you liked me I guess.
I shouldn't be crying but I cant help but feel like I did something wrong.
Because it seemed like you used to really want me.
What made you stop?
When did I become too much?
I only started loving you because you loved me and that you don't anymore what am I supposed to do?
Things were better this way.
Right?
I just wish you cared about how I felt.
I'm sorry i had anxiety.
I'm sorry I was annoying.
I'm sorry I was too stressful.
I might have been able to fall for you damn it.
I hate this.
I hate still wanting you.
I hate caring what you think.
I hate wishing that you'll miss me.
I hate you damn it.
