The Psyche Of Mine

Calm Or Crazy.

I find being calm..
To be unattainable..

There's always something that your subconscious is panicking about..
Regardless of how trivial the matter of panic be...
Your mind will panic..

Even the Buddhist priest living in temples..
Who are fully devoted to their practice.. and have been so for many many years..
Though they look calm on the exterior.. they are probably going crazy on the inside.. about...
Their chants.. yeah.. they probably panic about their chants going properly..
Point is that even these "calm" beings are going crazy on the inside...

Everybody panics internally...
Nobody really shows their crazy..

Those people who do show their true crazy selves are labelled as mentally ill..
But has anyone ever wondered why they behave the way they do??..
Maybe they have sooo many thoughts that probably oppose each other and are contradicting the rights and wrongs of society that have been followed since day one...
And these people are not able to handle so much of disparity in thoughts that their mind forgets the line between reality and imagination... and allows their panicky subconscious to cross over from the thoughts to our world where we see them as sick beings.. 

Look at it this way..
There is the imaginary part and the real part..
The imaginary part are your thoughts- your mind..
The real, your visible behaviour- the world..
You may think things.. and your behaviour in your mind is dependant upon your mood.. but..
Your behaviour in the real world is still totally detached from the imagined..
This suggests that..
Just because something exists in the imaginary part... doesnt mean it has to or does exist in the real..

The reason for this,..
You have a filter.. one thats transparently opaque..
It allows you to show the world your feelings.. but is able to stop when too much is visible ..

Some people loose this filter.. their mind sort of de-activates it..
And the result is an unfiltered and coarse series of blatantly spoken words and actions.

The mind does this in different ways in different beings and the result is the same but the magnitude is always different..

But really.. you can never know what a person might be thinking..
No matter how well you know someone.. realise this.. you will never really know them...
For you cant see their mind or their thoughts...

Its really human nature at this point to hide the actuality... and if you cant hide it... as I said above... you're considered absolutely and totally berserk.

And no matter how calm and composed one looks...
Always assume that they are crazy beings waiting to be unleashed into this world.. on the inside..

The unleashed real selves may not actually be bad.. but now thats all personal preference and choice..

And all this depends on how harmful your real self really is...