EPILOGUE
NW: How do I breathe
Diabetes Mellitus
It's a disease in which your blood glucose or blood sugar is too high. Your pancreas loses or fails to produce insulin, worse it doesn't make any. Insulin is a special hormone in giving energy . Without it, glucose takes over your blood.
Having a very high glucose may give serious problems with your heart, eyes, kidneys, nerves, gums and teeth. It destroys certain cells in pancreas. More or less, you could die.
And if you have this kind of disease, you have to take insulin for the rest of your life.
And that's what Nolae refused.
She stopped taking them.
That's why it ends here.
She ended it here.
I can feel my cheeks being damped again for the nth time. I swear my eyes won't get tire of it. Like it was a pro in crying. Like I've been keeping it for so long that I can't take much more, so it gave up.
“Sht these tears.” I mumbled.
I've been cussing nonstop, too.
For I thought it can lessen the pain if I put them in words.
I was and still fooling myself.
Damnit.
Why does it has to be this painful?
*Ring. . . Ring. . .*
Inabot ko ang phone ko sa side table. I saw Khris' number flashing at its screen. Pain follows.
Oo, hanggang ngayon umaasa ako na pangalan niya ang makikita ko.
I answered his call but refuse not to say any hellos.
[“Just checking if you're still alive.”] He chuckled. What now? [“And I think you still are.”]
Yeah. But I hope I was not.
[“How are you?”]
I gritted my teeth.
What the hell does he want?!
“Are you crazy? Aren't you the one who don't want to see me? Ikaw nga nagpalayas sakin! Ikaw ang nagpalayo! Gag0 ka?” I calmly said but there's a hint of anger with my words.
[“Alam ko.”] He mocked.
What the?
“Yeah. I guess you're happy that you're getting in my nerve Lee.” I said. He's really pissing me off. “What's with the chuckles anyway? You're happy Nolae's gone?”
I said with my sarcastic voice.
“Or your happy that I can't be happy?”
[“What the eff are you talking about? Me happy about it?! Jesus! I never thought that you'll be this dense!”]
That's it. I don't want any talks.
“Tangna. Tigilan mo nalang ako Khris.”
I hung up his call and throw my phone away from me.
But fck it. Nung narinig ko ang pagkabagsak nun, tumayo ako para lumapit at kunin yun. Sht. I saw my phone off and unable to power up. Nasira ko. Ewan ko pero dahil dun nanghina ako.
Tangna.
Oo na. Umaasa ako..
Na may iba pang tatawag.
Putchang buhay 'to.
Pinilit kong ayusin ang phone ko pero ayaw niyang mabuhay. I hit the bed and sighed deep. Ipinatong ko ang ulo ko sa headboard at nagisip. Nababaliw na ata ako.
Lumapit ako sa MP3 ko at nagshuffle ng kanta.
Most of the songs she sang are saved in here.
I bit my lower lip when I heard and imagined that she's the one actually singing it. I'm really hopeless. Ang sakit. Mas lalo akong nasasaktan pero bakit parang mas pinipili kong maging masokista?
6:38PM
I opened my eyes. Hindi ko napansin na nakatulog na pala ako. I removed my earphones and put the player in stop. Then I heard knocks on my door. I just stared at it. Still fooling myself I can open it by my eyes. Foolish Travis. You're really out of your mind.
“Travis, someone's here.”
I don't care.
“She wants to talk to you.”
*Dug. . .Dugdug. . .Dug. .*
She?
Who's she?
“She really wants to see you.”
I immediately got out of my bed and opened the door. My eyes wide open. I looked at my sister giving me her infamous sweet smile. She nodded and walked away.
My heart.
Ngayon lang ulit tumibok 'to ng ganito.
Ngayon lang ulit naging masigla.
Ngayon lang ulit naging masaya.
I nervously take my steps down the hall going to the living room. Step by step, my heart increases its palpitation. This suffocation of excitement. I'm feeling it once more.
Please.
I can feel it.
Andito siya.
Once I got my feet inside the living room. I froze for I saw a familiar figure. Electricity ran through my veins. Weird hotness began to explore my body.
I was about to take another step when she faced me.
“Hi T.”
Damn it, Travis.
“Oh. Hi Lyra.”
Tangna Travis. Hanggang kelan ka pa ba aasa? Hanggang kelan mo pa papaasahin ang sarili mo sa taong wala na? Kita mo kung pano umiyak sina Khris nung nalaman nila ang resulta ng operasyon. You were there to witness their pain.
And to let yourself be informed that it failed.
I looked at Lyra and shook my head. I really can't believe it. Mas lalo lang akong nasasaktan.
“How are you?”
Ewan ko pero biglang kumulo ang dugo ko, “Pinagtitripan niyo ba ako ni Khris?”
“H-ha?”
“Tama na! Utang na loob!”
Tinalikuran ko siya at bumalik sa kwarto ko. Napabuntong hininga nalang ako. Kung pede lang batukan ang sarili ko, kung pede lang magpabugbog, nagawa ko na. Please, sabihin niyo naman sakin na tigilan ko na ang kabaliwang 'to.
Coz I've been feeling this pain and it kills me.
Please make it stop.
Kinuha ko ulit ang phone ko at umaasang mabuhay 'to. Pinindot ko ng pinindot 'yung power key at bigla akong napangiti nung umilaw 'to. It was my first smile in days. I actually smiled and wonder if I'll be able to smile after it.
Pero nagulat ako nung biglang nag-ring ang phone ko.
Pero bakit nga ba ako umaasa?
I answered the call, “Tama na Khris. Pede ba.”
Pinatay ko ulit 'yun at lumabas ng kwarto. Nakita ko pa din 'dun si Lyra pero nilagpasan ko siya. Rinig ko ang tawag niya pero mas pinili kong talikuran. I got out and walk going to somewhere I hope I can have peace.
Naglakad ako at nakarating sa school, my alma mater.
Graduation was a fail.
Kahit nagkaroon ako ng awards, hindi pa rin masaya.
Wala na kasi siya nung mga panahong 'yun.
I shook my head and went straight to that room. That room where I actually felt her for the first time. That room where I felt the first paradise existing. Thinking of it makes my heart jump.
I opened the doors and found the same comforting ambiance like it used to be.
Papasok na sana ako nung biglang tumunog ang phone ko. Nakita ko ulit ang pangalan ni Khris kaya ni-reject ko ang tawag. Itinago ko ulit yun sa bulsa ko saka pumunta sa desk ko.
This place.
Umupo ako sa upuan ko nung tumunog na naman ang phone ko. Nakita ko lang ang screen at nakita na naman ang pangalan ni Khris. Ano bang kelangan niya?
Ni-reject ko 'yun pero tatawag na naman siya.
Reject ang ako ng reject.
But I gave up and just let it ring endlessly.
I looked at the wall clock, its 6:58PM.
Gabi na pero wala pa rin akong balak umuwi. I didn't bother if someone will find me here. Wala akong pakielam kung magalit sila. Pero kung pede lang sana dito muna ako. Ayoko munang umalis.
I can still hear Khris' calls.
Wala ba siyang balak tumigil?
Kinuha ko 'yung phone ko at para ireject.
Pero laking gulat ko nung makita ang ibang pangalan sa screen.
Nolae calling. . .
Bumilis na naman ang tibok ng puso ko. Na para bang gusto niya akong sakalin at mawalan ng hininga. Ta--tama ba 'tong nakikita ko? Pa--pangalan ni Norilae. Ang inaasahan kong tawag.
I pressed the green key, unable to speak.
[“Sabi na nga ba sasagutin mo pag number niya ginamit ko e.”]
“Sht.” Napahampas ako sa lamesa ng wala sa oras. “Tangna Khris! Ano ba talagan kelangan mo!?”
[“Edi ba 7PM na? Call time!”] He laughed again.
Bakit ba ang dali lang ng lahat para sa kanya?
“Stop calling! I don't need you!”
“Talaga?”
Nagulat ako nung marinig ang boses ni Khris na para bang malapit lang siya. I looked outside and found Khris smirking at me and holding the phone with his right. I deathly stare at him.
Pano niya nalaman na andito ako?
“Alis!”
Bigla naman niya akong tinawanan.
“Tama na Khris. Ayoko ng umasa. Pede ba?” I said with clear tone. I sighed. Gusto ko ng matigil 'to. Kaya kung pede. . . “Tama na.”
I stooped down and placed my head over my arms. Ayoko ng umasa. Ano pa bang kelangan kong gawin? Sawa na ako sa ganitong pakiramdam pero mukhang natutuwa pa sila sa pagiging ganito ko.
Tama na.
“Pasensya na pare.” Narinig kong sabi niya. “Gu-gusto ko lang naman malaman kung okay ka.”
“I'm not okay. Alis ka na.” Ibinaon ko ang mukha ko sa mga braso ko. Narinig ko ang paglapit sakin ni Khris.
“Sorry for being selfish. Sorry kung inilayo ko siya sayo.” He sounded sincere. “Natakot akong mawala ang isa sa espesyal na babae sa buhay ko. I carelessly made decisions without thinking of my bestfriend's feelings. I'm really sorry.”
“Well, Sorry din Khris pero di pa kita mapapatawag.”
Ako naman ang magiging selfish.
“I understand. Pero sorry talaga.”
Hindi ako umimik. Pero mas naramdaman ko ang paglapit ni Khris sakin. Papaalisin ko na sana siya nung naramdaman ko ang isang kamay na nakapatong sa kamay ko. I twitched
*Dug. . . Dugdug. . . Dug..*
Coffee.
T--that's not Khris' hand.
That's not Khris' perfume.
Tumingala ako at. . .
I saw a crying angel before me.
“Khris! Nakita mo na ba siya?!” Narinig ko ang boses ni Lyra. “Please make it fast! You can't make a blind wait!”
Natigilan ako.
“T--Travis, i--ikaw ba 'yan?”
She can't.
Having a very high glucose may give serious problems with your heart, eyes, kidneys, nerves, gums and teeth.
eyes.
“Please. Tell me that you're Travis.” She begged. Tumayo ako at hinawakan ang mukha niya. I stared at her opened eyes. “Travis.”
I can feel my arms' hair standing up.
“Norilae. . .”
And she put her arms around me.
“Travis!”
My heart beating so fast.
I hug her back.
She's here.
Andito si Norilae.
And I'm not letting go.
[END//]
A/N:
That's it!
End of my FIRST HELLO| BYE Series~
Lalalala~
And I must admit na PROLOGUE at EPILOGUE po ay ang pinaka-kahinaan ko. At hindi ko po alam kung pano ako magiimprove. Bigyan niyo naman ako advice. Desperada e! Ajujuju~ >0<
Anyway. Hope you enjoyed reading this series/sequel? Can you give me your thoughts? I really appreciate comments/critics/suggestions. Keep it coming! And oh, may tanong ba kayo? Parts na naguluhan? Please let me know. Please with cherry on top~~ *0*
AND LASTLY,
THANKYOU READERS! Alam niyo na kung sino kayo. MARAMING THANK YOU! SOBRANG SAYA KO. SUPPORTA at LAHAT, MARAMING MARAMING THANKYOU!
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-KITINBABY
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