Chapter 16: I pretend to be crazy and hold onto you but My body won’t listen to me...
She tugs me along to where our front row seats are. Millions of fans stand behind us all waiting for the same person that makes our heart race.
The lights go low and the chants from fans makes a thump in my heart form.
"JEON JUNGKOOK! PLEASE DON'T! JEON JUNGKOOK!"
Please don't?
What exactly is this song about?
"We sit next to each other in the car but there is no music I always held your left hand but now you’re picking at your lips..."
His voice sends chills down my spine.
"I know what you’re going to say, please don’t say it Don’t know why Don’t know why I want to draw out each minute, each second But the empty road rushes me on"
I feel a lump form in my throat.
"After going round and round, I arrive at your house that’s so familiar and tears fall After spending a long day finding this place, I feel like I am lost"
Is this song for....me?
"Please don’t, please don’t leave Don’t know why Don’t know why It’s not even raining but outside the window You grow white and farther apart..."
Jungkooks gaze meet mine.
There's tears in his eyes yet his voice sounds so sturdy.
"Letting you go is not as easy as it sounds I turn away, not being able to see you leave me Tears eventually drop and I need to wipe them away now I don’t know whether I should use the handkerchief you gave me or throw it away Why won’t this trembling go away?"
The words cut me like a knife.
I feel the wounds form and never recover.
"pretend to be crazy and hold onto you but My body won’t listen to me Intoxicated with the scent of you in the car I don’t want to wake up forever"
I take a step back.
My eyes are still locked on yours that hold such anger, such sadness.
"Please don’t (please) don’t leave please (please) Come back (come back) come back (come back) On top of the empty seat you left, only your cold scent remains
Please don’t, please don’t leave Come back (come back) come back (come back) I will hold onto the remaining scent so come back to your place..."
The song ends and I feel my head spinning.
Your deep voice captures me again.
"Today was a day I was looking forward to. Tonight someone is here in the crowd that I care about. This song is about them. You know who you are... all I'm asking is please don't leave me... I need you so much."
Please don't leave?
I thought you hated me.
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