Good Girl Bad Girl

Doing It Wrong

(PLAY THE MUSIC IN THE MULTIMEDIA AS YOU READ THIS CHAPTER)

TREVOR POV:

    I was currently in my room listening to Drake's "Doing It Wrong."  It's crazy how bad I messed this up. I had a chance with the most beautiful girl in the world, but I blew it because of... I don't even know anymore... maybe I can call it selfishness. Yeah. Selfishness.  I began to zone out as I listened to what the song began to say.

    [Verse 2]
We live in a generation of, not being in love, and not being together
But we sure make it feel like we're together
Cause we're scared to see each other with somebody else

[Hook]
So cry if you need to, but I can't stay to watch you
That's the wrong thing to do
Touch if you need to, but I can't stay to hold you
That's the wrong thing to do
Talk if you need to, but I can't stay to hear you
That's the wrong thing to do
Cause you'll say you love me, and I'll end up lying
And say I love you too

But I need someone different
You know it, oh ho, you know it
Oh ho, you know it, we both know it
I need someone different
You know it, oh ho, you know it
Oh ho, you know it, we both know it
Something's been missing
You know it, oh ho, she knows it
Oh ho, I know it, we all know it
I need someone different
(Oh ho, oh ho)

    If only I could explain to her that what I did was wrong.. we both know I was wrong, but it took me seeing her with another man to put my selfish pride to the side for once and think. I'll admit. I don't know if I for surely love her. I don't know if I want to keep her to myself. I don't if seeing her with another man is triggering me to have this type of behavior. I don't know anything except the fact that I may have lost my very best friend. The only person that's been there for me through everything and anything... what the hell am I saying... everything she has done for me is the reason why I do love her... coming to this realization put me even deeper in my feelings. I grabbed the remote control for my television to turn it off since it was muted and I wasn't watching it anyways. I hope this man fucks up so I can get my shot back....

ZENDAYA POV:

    "Stooooooop Matt! Why must you play all daaaay?!," I said running around the island trying to get my Dutch chocolate ice cream from between his clutch. "You said I could have some babe! Some as in sharing and sharing is caring! You tried to play me like I was a baby. I'm a fully grown man bruh, you playin with me Maree!" I groaned in aggravation as I stomped my foot. "I don't like you," I said walking away pouting. "Aggghhhh don't act like that now," he said sitting by me on the couch. "Put your lip back in baby. Here, I'll feed us both. Come on." He patted his lap and I scrunched up my face at him. He sucked his teeth in and looked at me. Before I knew it, he had me scooped up in his hands and into his lap. "Wasn't so hard now was it?" He took the tub of Dutch chocolate ice cream and carefully scooped enough to take a bite. Putting it to my lips, he told me to open up, which I was ready to do. "Such a big baby," he joked. I nuzzled my head into his neck and he laughed. There was nothing more that I wanted to do than this. I cherished being loved & nutured as if I was a garden. Matt treated me with such care and love that I was flourishing in ways I never imagined. Not giving him all the credit, but he has played an important role so far in my life. My parents love him and so does my siblings. He's such a blessing and I couldn't ask for anything more of him... I just wish I could let him all the way in. I know his intentions are well, but these trust issues imbedded in me now are like tattoos.
    "Whatcha thinkin about stink?" Breaking out of my thoughts, I looked at him with much confusion. "You looked like you were deep in thought about something... like something is bothering you." "It's nothing at all. My mind just wanders." "You've been doing that a lot lately though. You'd just zone out on me & we could be having the most perfect time. You know you can talk to me about anything. We've been dating a while now, ya can't hide nothing from papa." "Papa?" I chuckled. He's always coming up with these silly names for us, but it's cute. "Thank you for caring love, thank you for everything. 6 months with you have been amazing and slowly, but surely you really are making your mark on me." "I hope so... because I wouldn't wanna share these moments with anyone but you." He kissed nose & then my forehead as he sighed and went back to watching the television. He's so perfect. I don't know why I'm sitting here worrying myself when everything I need is right before my eyes.