Fall in Place

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Adeline's pov:

who was that girl? Why was she with him? Did he move on? Was i that forgettable?

Does he miss me? Does he miss us? Does he want me back?

questions revolved around my head making me feel nautious. I was never the over-thinking type.

But when it came to this sentimental case, i had to think my way out of it.

I layed there on my bed staring at the mini crystal chandelier hanging from the ceiling as it was sending lookalike sun rays around my cozy room.

Should i forget about us? He sure as hell did.

I got up and walked towards the mirror in my room.

"Okay so um.. its been a while since I've had a self talk.. haha" i awkwardly said as i stared at my flawed self from the mirror.

"Why cant i be perfect..?" I'm sure xavier forgot me and found someone worthy of him.

"I bet he realized im nothing and he could do way better." I said sighing in pain.

i hopelessy stared at myself through the mirror, with shame.

I was never the type to bash themselves, but sometimes i get fed up and done with everything, with life. And i need a hand, you could say.

So this was it. I needed to hear it from myself before hearing it from anyone else.

I stared at the mirror, getting lost with my thoughts, and memories..

Two years ago

'you don't fit in cause you were born to stand out sweetie, why be a copy when you could be a original?' Said my mom as i stood there choking back the tears, regretting what i have become.

She was loving and caring, but sadly, she doesn't understand me. I dont blame her though, no one does.

I wasn't what you'd call 'a regular kid', i wasn't really fond of the idea of partying on a friday night, or taking risks and that.

I mean, yes, i am tough and a fighter, and i dont give up. But sometimes, everyone  needs a break from everything. You know?

Well, my so called friend which was my only one after sydney changed schools, backstabbed me, if you dont know how it feels, im very happy for you, if you do, i am deeply sorry you had a fake best friend you deserve way better.

After i became unpopular, i started not caring about other peoples opinions, you could say i started building up a strong personality, and im thankful but, i started distancing myself from everyone.. my only vent was reading, and i enjoyed that.

It's where i felt safe at that moment.

Present

I was to caught up with my old self, memories, feelings, That i didnt notice the tears running down my face.

"Dont you ever doubt yourself, again. You are perfect, no boy or backstabbing friend can define or change what you know you are." I said encouraging myself.

I cracked a smile, not expecting my own words, i wiped the tears off my face.

Well.. im not that bad.. im actually kinda pretty

I said as i spun around once admiring myself.

See there you go love, thats the spirit!

i smiled at the thought.

maybe xavier didnt forget me after all?

im thankful for sydney, she made me, well, me! And helped me through a lot, even though i distanced her for a while.. she was still there for me and still is.

I'll tell sydney tomorrow.

I thought as i slowly dozed off.