Going Crazy

Chapter 11

Wow. Just wow. I don't think I have to explain much here. After Sting..... You know. I was fracked out. I had tried to push him away, it-it- it was just so wrong! I knew I had to to get away from him, so I did.

I ran away. I ran away from him and my feelings. I tried to resist that stupid kiss but for some reason I couldn't. One part of me welcomed it and the other...... Other part of me, well the all part of me agreed with the other part of me and ran away. I know this is very confusing.

I was terrified, but I don't think all of my fear came from Sting, I was mostly afraid of myself. Afraid I was falling for him. I don't want to fall for him. I don't want to love him..... But I think I do. This is all so stupid. I hate myself so much.

Do I love him or despise him? I thought we were only going to fake our live for one night... And we are, right? Why does it feel real then?

Just great, he probably thought I was crazy now. Wait a minute, what if he really does think I'm crazy? What if he thinks I'm some sick weirdo who runs away from guys after kissing them because she's afraid like some kind of wuss?

Stop it Lucy! I scolded myself as I shook my head frantically while running down the hall. Why would you even care if he thought you were strange? You never care for things like that!

You like him just admit it!

No you hate him hate him hate him!

A few minutes later, I made it to the guild hall and quickly found Levy. I dragged her by the arm to a wall and whispered hurriedly.

"You won't believe what happened. I mean, it want good- but it wasn't bad either- it was like-"

"Gajeel agreed to go to the dance with me!" Levy bounced with a squeak as she clapped.

"He did?" I stepped back in surprise.

For a moment I had forgotten all about Sting. I never expected Gajeel to go to the dance with Levy. I just hadn't.

"I know! Can you believe it?"

"No."

"This his amazing! It's amazing! Have you ever gotten that feeling inside where you thought everything was horrible but then everything turned out just great!"

I opened my mouth but she broke into a frenzy of bubbly excitement.

"He just walked up to me and I shyly looked at him with a 'oh hello, I'm super cute!' Kind of look in my face, and then he asked!"

"How did he say it?" I managed to say.

"He said there was a couples dance in the town he had heard it and needed someone to go with him. He asked if I wanted to go since no one else would, so of course I said yes!"

"No one else would, huh?" I rolled my eyes with a grunt and a sarcastic expression.

Levy gasped like she had just realized something life changing.

"This means we get to go to the dance together! Just like we always wanted to!"

"Um, we only even discovered the dance like a couple gourde ago."

"This is going to be the best night of my life!" Levy ran off dancing in joy.

I shop my head in amusement. Levy could always make me smile. Oh shoot! I forgot to tell her about that stupid-

"Lucy."

I turned around to find Natsu standing behind me. Alone. That's strange, where was his pesky companion?