Feeling (Yato x Reader)

8: Mind Your Distance

—You

The next morning, my mother made me take those anti-depressants I was prescribed. They made me groggy and I was quite out of it.

While walking to school, there were many instances where I wanted to call Yato to get rid of the phantoms litering the streets. I didn't want to bother him though.

It would become quite annoying if I began to call him every time I saw a phantom. With that, I would just have to cope whenever I had to walk past one of the creepy beings.

As I approached the courtyard of the school, Hiyori walked over to me. "What makes you so special?" She asked me, stopping me in my tracks.

I raised an eyebrow in confusion. "I'm sorry?" I said.

"Don't act oblivious, (Y/n). You know what I'm talking about," Hiyori replied.

"I'm sorry, really I don't have a clue," I answered.

"What makes you Yato's top priority?" She asked.

"Top priority? I never knew anything about that. I just know I paid him for a couple of wishes is all," I said.

"Ah, so that's it, huh? He's just with you because you paid him," Hiyori replied.

My heart sank a bit. Each time that thought popped into my head, I got scared that I could lose him at any moment. Why did I have to pay for his friendship?

"No, that's not true. He truly thinks of me as a friend, I know it. Just because I paid him doesn't mean that's the only reason he's my friend. He could have refused," I explained to convince myself and her.

"You're just playing a big game of Russian Roulette with me aren't you? Probably waiting for the correct barrel to align with the gun shaft, right? First you betray my trust in you, now you want to take my happiness from me," Hiyori explained.

"Hiyori, I don't understand why you're saying all this, I haven't done anything," I said. "I've been trying to right all my wrongs and fix my mistakes, what's making you hate me so much? It can't just be what I did to you," I added.

Hiyori shook her head at me. "Stay away from Yato. You're making him upset," she snapped and walked away.

I heaved a sigh and walked into the school. I was surprised by now I hadn't attracted more phantoms to myself. Did they not attach to those aware of them? Or was I just that good at avoiding them?

Though Hiyori had said such things to me, I had no intentions of avoiding Yato or forcing him to go away. However, I also didn't want to anger her more so I wasn't going to make extra efforts to see him.

I thought it rude the way she felt the need to treat Yato like an object. He had desires and wants just like her. How could she just act like that? If he truly didn't want anything to do with me, he would tell me himself.

However, he seemed so philanthropic that I doubted he'd do such a thing. The school day seemed to drift by like a dream almost. The anti-depressants made me feel lighter than air. I felt relaxed. I knew I didn't need them though, so I just decided I'd throw them away the next time she made me take them.

It was a waste of good money, but I wasn't in need of it.

Even in situations where I normally would have cried or become sad, I felt I couldn't. I was being held back from my emotions like watching myself being micromanaged through a glass wall.

I'd tried my luck talking to Aika again, however, my efforts had gone to waste. She still wanted nothing to do with me.

During lunch, I had my head down. I was starting to get a headache. Guess it was one of the side effects of the medicine.

Ryu sat down beside me and patted my back. "Hey, how are you doing?" He asked.

I shook my head. "Not feeling well," I said.

"Wanna go to the nurse?" Ryu asked.

I put my head up and shook it again. "It's a side effect of the medicine I'm on," I answered.

"What? Your mom put you on medicine?" He said, slightly concerned.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"That stuff can make it worse sometimes," he replied.

I nodded. "Yeah, I know. I tried to talk to Aika... twice now she's turned me away," I said.

"What? Has she even listened to you?" He asked.

"No, she just thinks I'm a horrible person," I replied.

Ryu chuckled a little and beat his fist against his hand. "Want me to talk to her?" He asked jokingly.

I laughed a bit at this and shook my head. "No, it's fine. If she doesn't want to be my friend anymore, then I'm fine with it. It's her loss," I explained.

Ryu looked at me more sympathetically. "Are you sure you're okay with that? You don't have many friends after her, Hiyori and I," he said.

When he said Hiyori's name, my mind immediately drifted to Yato.

"(Y/n)?!" He yelled, staring at me.

"What? Why are you yelling?" I snapped, my body suddenly feeling much lighter and my mind felt much less heavy.

Suddenly, I realized my soul had slipped out. Finally I could have a free day to myself. I quickly just walked away from my body and climbed out of an opened window which turned the room fridged.

I felt much better being away from my drugged body. It was like a weight. I wondered if there was a way to slip at will so I could escape a situation of my choosing. The only person who would truly know was Hiyori but asking her was out of the question.

My feet wandered around the cable wires connecting the electrical poles. My feet started to guide me where ever they chose.

Then I bumped into.... a person?

My eyes drifted upward and I came face to face with Hiyori. "Hiyori...?" I said, confused. She had a pinkish purple cat tail behind her.

"What are you doing around here?" She asked.

I looked around, realizing the area was vaguely familiar. "I don't know, I just kind of started walking," I said, my own tail swaying slowly.

"This is near Kofuku's. I was on my way there," she replied then looked down behind me.

"Better be careful aimless by yourself out here. It leaves you vulnerable to phantoms. And trust me, they really like us, especially if you've been hanging around a god," Hiyori explained. "They really like their smell," she added then started walking away.

I sighed softly and decided to start heading in the opposite direction.

(A/N): Apologies for the short chapter v_v