Forget What We Saw

You are all to blame

Phil's P.O.V

Tears were streaming down my face. "Mum, please!" I cried out again. She ignored me. I tried my hardest to fight back, but her grip was too strong. It was as if my mum became ten times stronger when she was mad. My mum was cursing. I was crying. Everything was going so well, and...it happened so fast, I couldn't even comprehend what had just happened. I tried running it through my confused head. Let's see. We kissed...my mum...screaming. I was about to give up and give in to my mum and just go home when I saw two figures running towards me. I noticed they were yelling. "PHIL!" I heard. They weren't just running. They were chasing.

One of the figures was going much faster. They were gaining on us! I sense a spark of hope that is quickly put out by my mum. "I can't believe this!" she shouted. "Mum..." I stutter. "Don't you dare call me mum! I refuse for you to be known as my son!" she screamed. We were getting close to her car. Then, one of the figures got so close that I could see who it was. It was...a girl? She had short hair dyed blue and green eyes. She was waving "...what the..." I whisper to myself. "Shut you're fucking mouth!" my mum screams. I wince. Why? Why me? This is all my fault. I shouldn't have done that. Dan most likely hates my guts. Idiot Phil, idiot. I got so distracted that I didn't hear...or feel the girl shaking me and screaming. My mum lets go of me. Then I snapped out of my trans. "You can't tell me what to do with my son!" my mum screamed. "Well, you can't tell me what to do either!" I heard the girl scream. Why was she...helping me? My mum pushed the girl and grabbed me. Then, I felt another hand on my arm. It was Dan.

"Let go of him!" Dan shouted. "No, he is my child!" my mum shouted. "Listen, let me talk to him for ten minutes, please!" cried out Dan. "No way in hell! You did this to my son! You made him a fag, just like you!" she shouted. I looked around. Everyone was in shock. The last comment set the girl off. "Excuse me, miss? Can we talk? Gay to homophobe?" she said. "No!" she shouted. "You jerk! This is your son! You should accept him no matter what!" she screamed. My mum fell to her knees. My dad was here. "What the hell is going on?" he asked. The girl started explaining angrily. Then, Dan grabbed me.

He pulled me into a hug. "Phil..." he said, rubbing my arm. This is backwards. This has been the other way around for months. Me, comforting Dan. It was the opposite today. "I'm...I'm...I'm so sorry Dan. This is all my fault. I shouldn't have done...done that," I stutter, trying to hold back my tears. Dan was crying. "Philly..." Dan whispered. "I'm so sorry... ". I know that my mum, dad and the girl were all watching and that hell would break loose as soon as I left Dan. Dan gives me a quick kiss. "Oh my god. My son just kissed a guy, My son is gay," whispered my mum, kneeling on the ground crying. I feel terrible. "Mum, I'm-" I start. "Just shut up ! Shut up! You can go live under a bridge for all I fucking care!" she screams. "Honey, calm down..." my dad starts. He just looks at me and stares. Then he takes my mum to the car, and gives the I'll talk to you later look. Then he drives away, leaving the three of us alone. "Who are you?" I mutter out to the girl. "I'm....I'm Hope," she mutters. "That's ironic..." I manage to get out. She blushes. "Shut it..." she mutters. "Listen, thank you...so...so...much," I muster out before beginning to cry again. "It's okay, don't mention it," she says. Then we see another girl run over. "Hey, what happened?" The girl asked. "Okay, basically...these boys kissed, his mum got mad, blah blah..." she went on. "Oh god, I'm so sorry..." said the girl. "What's your name?" Dan asks, his hand in mine. "Vicky," she said. She had black hair and blue eyes.

"Don't say that!" Vicky cried out. "You did something most people can't do, and you had an awful homophobic mum too," says hope. We get their numbers to talk later. It was now just Dan and I sitting on the grass crying. "Phil...thank you," Dan says. "What...? I got us into this mess! Why are you...thanking me?" I ask. "Because Phil...you made the first move," Dan laughs. I do too. "How...how will it be at home?" Dan nervously asks. "Oh...my dad will help..." I say nervously. "Why don't you stay at the centre tonight? To let them cool down...if you want to..." Dan nervously asks. "I'll text my dad," I say, shaking.

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?

P: Can I stay with Dan tonight? To let mum...cool off?
D: Um...Fine. Your mum...she's really mad.
D: Son, are you actually gay?
P: ...
P: Yeah...
D:It's fine with me, I don't mind.

I let out a sigh of relief, and Dan does too. He was reading over my shoulder. "Hey!" I say. "Sorry..." Dan mutters. "Kidding..." I mutter. 

P: Thanks, Dad. I knew it...
D: Your mum is not okay with it. I'll try my best...to help. It would be safer if you stay with your boyfriend.
P: Dad, he's not my boyfriend...yet.
D: Whatever...just be safe. Please, Phil. Your mum is really mad.
P: Thanks, Dad, your the best.
D: No problem, have fun with your boyfriend.
P: Dad!

He stops answering. I let out a sigh. My dad made me feel better. Dan was blushing badly. "What, you don't want to be called my boyfriend?" I ask jokingly. "No, not that just..." he turns ever redder and hides his face in my chest. I put my arm around him. I was...confused by my emotions. I was terrified and sad. What would become of my mum and I? Yet, I was also happy. I had Dan with me. We had already been through so much, this was just another hurdle in this long race. And we were going to get to the finish line, hand in hand.

I used my card to pay for both of our trips to the Centre. We nervously go on the long trip to the centre. I felt like everyone was looking at us, even when nothing had changed. We got there, finally. "Hi Dan, hi Phil!" said Mrs.Gene. It was kinda funny. I was here so much that the works here knew me just as much as they knew Dan. I look at my watch. It was almost 1 am! "You're back late! Are you guys alright?" Mrs Gene asked. "Yeah, but can Phil stay here tonight? He had an issue with his parents," Dan asked. "Oh, sure, He can sleep--" she starts. "Uh, I can figure that out," I say quietly. Mrs Gene gives a blank stare before making the oh face. "Right then, night boys," she said.

Dan's room was pretty small and the bed took up almost half the room. "Thank you, so much, Dan, really," I say. He puts his arm around me. "Don't worry about it," Dan says. I sigh and put my head on his shoulder. Dan kisses my forehead. We fall asleep, trying to forget about everything that was happening.