Forget What We Saw

Choose your fate, walk away

Phil's P.O.V

I stayed there, wrapped in Dan's arms. I didn't want it to end. It was if Dan was protecting me from...everything. Is this how I make him feel? That sounds really selfish, but I don't care anymore. Dan was truly the first person I had ever come out to, even before my close family members. This meant a lot to me, more than Dan could ever know. But not only did I come out, so did Dan. I stand there listening to the waterfall. I wonder if I should tell Dan that he is the first person I've ever come out to. I don't really want to ruin this though. "Thank you, Dan. Really," I say. "Don't worry, Philly," he said. Philly? I guess I do call myself that sometimes...not that I really mind. "Dan...you're the first person I've ever come out to, even before family," I say. This takes Dan by surprise. He ends the hug. The two of us are left standing across from each other, staring. "...r-really...? I'm that important to you?" Dan muttered in a gentle voice. "I just...I can't find the time to tell my dad...and you're a close friend. I've been through a lot with you," I say. "And I know my mum won't be okay with it...." I mutter under my breath. I know it's true. "Oh, Phil..." Dan said and hugged me.

Dan looked at his watch. "Oh no, 5:51!" Dan said. "I'm sorry, Dan..." I said. "No, it isn't your fault. I can make it anyways," he said as began to walk. We got to the front doors at 5:57, "Phew, we made it," Dan said. "Wait, one more thing," I said, grabbing his wrist before he walked inside. "Dan, I don't want you to spend Christmas alone," I say. "Will you come to my house for Christmas? Please?" I ask. His face lights up. "Really? You want to be near me on Christmas?" stuttered Dan. "Yeah! I'll pick you up at like 10 AM if you want. You can meet some of my family too!" I said happily. "If you want to, anyway..." I quickly add. Dan ran up to me and grabbed my hands. "Thank you, thank you, thank you!" Dan said. I had never seen him this happy! He quickly hugged me and ran inside. "Thank you, Philly" Really!" he shouted as he went inside. Dan made my day by accepting me, and now I had made his day.

It was now the 23rd. Three days had passed. I was in the store, doing last minute Christmas shopping. "Why do I always shop last minute?" I asked myself. Then I looked down on the list on my phone. I need to get mum, granddad, and Dan something. I went to the snow-globe section and got my granddad a snow-globe. He loves these things for some reason. I got him one with a cute snowman family inside. What to get for mum...I have no idea. I never really know what to get her. A gift card sounds lame. I wander through the aisles aimlessly. Then I see a teddy bear holding a heart that says 'I love my mama bear!' It was really corny, but I decided to get it anyway. Now, Dan. He most likely doesn't want another plush. I mean, he isn't five. I walk and walk through aisles. Then something catches my eye. It was a black locket. The front said 'strong' Once again, corny...but it kinda works. I could put one of our many stupid pictures inside. Hmm...I should get a card too. I grab one with puppies in Christmas hats on it. Wait, I should get something for Dan's friend, Danielle! She most likely doesn't get a lot of gifts. I go to the toy aisle and grab a purple elephant. "Perfect!" I think to myself. I check out and walk home. The store wasn't too far.

"Hey dad, I'm back!" I say to my dad as I walk inside. "Hi, Phil," he says whilst filling out paperwork. "Just 'Phil'ling out some paperwork?" I say to my dad. He chuckles and face palms. I go upstairs to wrap the presents. My wrapping skills weren't very good, but it's the thought that counts right? Now, to Dan's card. What to write....what to write. Hmm....I think about it for a while until I finally thought of something. "Dear Dan, Merry Christmas! I just want to tell you that you are such a great friend and an awesome person to be around. You will get through all your struggles, I know it. I believe in you. I will always be here for you. I'm only one call or text away! Love, Philly," That sounds alright. Now to the picture. I go through all of our weird pictures until I chose one with Dan doing a peace sign and me smiling weirdly. Dan seems to do the peace sign a lot. It's kinda funny. I put the picture in the locket and put it in its little black box and wrap it. "There!" I say to myself. I was on Christmas break, so I didn't need to go to bed early. So I watch some YouTube until I fall asleep.

For Christmas eve, I didn't really do much. I hung out with Dan and Danielle. Dan played some Christmas songs, and a big group of people was surrounding the three of us by the end. It was pretty nice, and I think it made Dan feel good. I was in Dan's room, getting ready to leave. He was in a very good mood, which I will admit, doesn't happen much. He usually feels kinda down or just 'fine' I look in the corner of his room to see a wrapped present. "You're a lot at wrapping presents than I am,"  I joke. "Hey, Don't look!" he said and rushed to it. "why? And I'm not looking!" I playfully cover my eyes. "It's....for you," he mumbles. "What is it?" I ask, acting like a child. "Not telling!" said Dan playfully. "Aw! Come on, please!" I pout. "No way, Philly," Dan said and patted me on the head. "Hobbit hair..." I mumble. "Hey, I heard that!" Dan shouted. "No, you didn't," I say. "Yes I did," he says. "Nope, no way," I say. "Yes way," he says. "Yes way," I say, cleverly. "No way---you little..." Dan starts. I break out into laughter and so does Dan. 

I wave good bye and assure him that I would be there tomorrow morning.