Life story

Year 5 (pt 3)

It was halloween, Ellie and I were having a sleepover and was invited to Tess's halloween party.
I wish I could go home.

Halfway through the party I was in on the trampoline with Issy who then left to talk to Nanami. I sat there hugging my knees. I felt so lonely. Year 5. I was the loner. I really had no friends left. Only Year 6s who would leave me soon after.

I sat there thinking about suicide. Like everyone says. It ends the pain. The pain of what others bring.
I started to cry. I didn't want others to see me like this. Issy came back only to start comforting me. Alexis noticed soon after and everyone else. They all crowded over me and talked about why I was crying.

"Suicide" I said.

They were all shocked. Staring at me, I was known at school for being so happy and cheery all the time. None if them had seen this side if me before. They all helped me and the rest of the night went like a flash. It's hard to forget what happened that night and sometimes I wish I could relive it.

I went back to Ellie's house and we didn't speak much after that. We just lied on the mattresses facing away from each other.