Notes (Jeon Jungkook)

Chapter 6: His dreams are my dreams

Jungkook and Ryujin are now dating and they were doing fine together. Ryujin would often visit Jungkook at their dorm with a huge amount of food for the other members as well. They were happy for the both of them, but one was very reluctant and aware looking out for Ryujin and it was Hoseok.

He wanted spill the beans to Jungkook, who never had a single clue. Ryujin was excellent when it comes to hiding how she felt, because she didn't want people to see her as a weak person. The two would be all clingy with each other making the other members cringe, it was only natural for them to act lovely whenever they were together. In this case they've never seen Jungkook this happy with a girl, he was enjoying every single time that they spent together.

Hoseok quickly pulled Ryujin when they had a break from practice. He talked about his concerns to Ryujin, because he knew that she would only open up mostly to her mother, judging by Jungkook's lively mood lately, he knew that Jungkook didn't have any ideas. "Ryujin, you should open up more to Jungkook",'Hoseok muttered intently looking at Ryujin in concern.

"I'll try oppa, It's hard you know. I don't want to kill the mood", Ryujin whispers making sure that no one could hear their conversation. "Life is too harsh to me right now", Ryujin squeaks with hot tears slowly coming out from her eyes. Hoseok immediately grabbed her body and hugged her tightly, patting her head at the same time.

The two remained together for at least three hours before Jungkook called Ryujin, he was wondering where his girlfriend went, a few hours passed already. Namjoon was quite displeased seeing Yerin inside their dorm. She acted too comfortably and family with the place, which they only gave Ryujin permission to do that as a close friend of theirs. Yerin continued to bother them, for as long as they knew Jimin wanted to throw her out, but he was too kind to do such a thing, instead he let out his frustrations by playing video games with Taehyung.

Yoongi was busy glaring at her, she wasn't paying attention to others except Jungkook. Jin scoffed on purpose for Yerin to hear, too bad that she wasn't aware. She kept on forcing herself to him, while Jungkook was slowly getting irritated and wanted to shut her off. But of course he possibly can't do that because it wasn't right.

Ryujin came back with Hoseok in their dorm, Yerin blurted out the point why Hoseok and Ryujin was together, but they trusted the both of them. Because even if Hoseok felt something towards Ryujin he preferred to act like an older brother for her. Just for Jungkook not to get the wrong idea. Jungkook smiled widely hugging Ryujin, she was taken aback by his sudden move, probably because he missed her even if she was just out for a few hours.

Yerin's fist was balled up, unconsciously bitting her lip in annoyance, she couldn't dare to see the sight longer. It sickens her, when her ex-boyfriend is being all mushy with his present one. It made her realize how it would be difficult for her to get Jungkook back. But she was hard-headed. She wants him all to herself, and even if she was to hurt someone physically or mentally she wouldn't hesitate to do that.

Because she was insane for attention, and she wants Ryujin out of his life.

Ryujin gathered her might to inform Jungkook why she was often out of school.

But the moment she saw his eyes boring into hers, her supple body rested on Jungkook's chest, her tears wetting his shirt. And she turned to face him to avoid him getting deeper thoughts . She cupped his cheeks, as he gulped seeing her lips asking for his.

He gave in, with his body hovering her's. They both knew that it wasn't just lust, but love. They were hesitant to be more intimate with each other. Ryujin was too innocent and Jungkook wasn't that type of guy. Their hearts both heavily pacing, his eyes staring at hers, her lips asking for more.

He pulled away getting back at her reason. "What did you want to tell me?", he caresses her cheek.
Ryujin couldn't open her mouth to tell the truth, instead she just shrugged. "I guess I missed your lips", she nervous uttered, fiddling with her fingers.

Jungkook lets out a soft chuckle before pulling her to his side. "You're being too cute", he pinched her cheek. Inside her was her heart palpitating, her stomach tied up in knots, filled with overwhelming fear. She didn't want to upset Jungkook, she was prolonging everything, those white lies which grew bigger.Jungkook was contented by just seeing her brightly, however he knew that those smiles hid sadness, he was worried for Ryujin. Because he loves her to infinity. It was never ending, and he knew something was off between her and Hoseok.

His hyung would often ask him if Ryujin was alright, and would tell him that he has to take care of her. It made him more curious, was he not enough for her?, or he was too busy with practicing and studying. He felt horrible for not being with her most of the time, he wanted to rest for a while. Ryujin was now peacefully sleeping in his arms, he thought that she must've been exhausted from earlier, but he observed that Ryujin cried while they kissed.

He was bothered if he was just a bad kisser or it was a different reason. He remembered that he saw a bunch of medication back at Ryujin's apartment and he didn't hesitate to search for the information of those. Because why on earth would Ryujin have a large amount of medication in her household. Not to mention the rumors why she was always out of school because she was sick.

It made him more anxious when he saw the results.

And he is questioning himself why Ryujin never told him about more personal things. It scared him, what if Ryujin was lying all along that she was okay. He wanted her to tell it to him personally.

He just doesn't want to loose the girl which meant the only piece of his value of emotions.