stalemate (BL Novel)

stalemate 007a

this is the first half of the last chapter,

hopefuly, magustuhan niyo.

and i'm really thankful sa lahat ng nagbasa at magbabasa pa nito.

may announcement po ako at the end of 7b so pls, stay tuned.

love yah guys!!

-kei

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**MOVE 007a**

-keita-

"Why Keita? Why are you doing this? Ano ba ako sayo?"

He finally asked the question I feared I couldn't answer. Bakit ko nga ba ginagawa ito? I should've stopped long ago. I shouldn't have started this. This is... insanely wrong.

"I..."

"What Keita? Do you like me?"

It hit me like a bucket of cold water. Do I like Youjin in that way? Anong mangyayari kung sabihin kong gusto ko si Youjin?

"I'm sorry... I don't know..."

Tears from Youjin's eyes started streaming down again. His eyes were bloodshot from crying. "Y-You don't know? You kissed and touched a guy and yet you don't know?! What's wrong with you?"

"I don't know... I... don't really know. Sorry, Youjin."

"You're the worst." He said in a shaking voice as he ran out of the room leaving me standing in complete agony.

-youjin-

I hate this. I hate this. I hate this.

For a second there, I hoped for Keita to say he likes me. I was a fool to hope for something impossible.

I ran as fast as I could to distance myself from Keita. He's not following me but still this place seemed so small for the two of us. It's suffocating.

I stopped by my locker to grab my things and got a glance of myself from the small mirror in my locker. I looked like a mess. But I couldn't careless; I wanna go home and shut myself in my room. And not think of him. Not think of everything we did. As if I could really do that.

"Youjin..."

I turned on my back and saw Misao standing few feet behind me. Kita ko sa ekspresyon ng mukha nya ang pagkagulat ng makita niya ako then his expression became soft. He knew something happened. I gave him a pained smile.

Sabay kaming lumabas ng university ni Misao. Parehas kaming tahimik at nakikiramdam sa isa't isa. The silence was painful, unbearably painful. Nagpaflashback sa isip ko lahat ng nangyari sa amin ni Keita kanina. I could still hear his voice. I could still see his pained expression. Nothing feels right.

Hindi ko napansing nakarating kami sa isang parke. Naupo si Misao sa bench at tinapik nya ang isang side telling me to sit beside him. Sinunod ko naman siya at naupo ako. Ilang minuto na kami nakaupo pero wala pa ding nagsasalita sa aming dalawa.

But I never once felt uncomfortable sitting with Misao in silence. Maybe sometimes we just need a silent company. Someone who will let us be with our thoughts as they sat beside us, someone who will not force us to speak because they know you're not ready to open up yet. I'm glad it's Misao who saw me earlier. Kasi kung si Eisuke yun, for sure magkakaroon ng gulo. Pipilitin niya akong magsalita tungkol sa nangyari knowing I can't lie to him at after hearing everything, susugurin niya si Keita at mag-aamok na sya ng away. Eisuke was like a really possessive big brother.