Vampire's Soulmate × 김태형 ×

30- ° Hell °

° Hae Soo °

A week and a half later

No school for today, nor the whole last week. I couldn't get up from my bed either. God fucking end me now, I feel like I have died and came back to life last night, it's scary how fast I began calling it 'usual' again. I didn't shed any tears though, I couldn't let myself. Whenever I closed my eyes I could see a image of Jimin and his friends beating up Taehyung. I chose not to believe in that because it's just my imagination, my Taehyung isn't as weak as that.

"Come out you slut!" My mother's voice made me shiver to the bone. My knees started going weak, making it so much harder to come to her than usually. I tried to come as fast as I could, still got a hard slap so I don't know why I tried so hard in the first place. I blurted out a curse at the stinging, my stupid self earned another slap because of it. "Go and make your ugly self as pretty as it can be, you have work to do." She spat out coldly and pushed me back towards my room. I stumbled over my feet but managed to hold myself up. She didn't even try to bite back her laugh at that, muttering "pathetic" under her breath before going off.

I took my used to be favourite skinny jeans, a basic black shirt that had holes for my thumbs, I made it myself since I was anxious and kept poking it with my nails so it broke off one day. I didn't patch it up since it was comfortable having the fabric between my thumb and pointer finger. As I slipped into the outfit I could feel my heart break. A wave of missing how Taehyung's shirts were so big on me that they didn't touch my waist at all, as if they were only hanging on my shoulders, it made me feel tiny and cute as he always praised my looks. It's crazy how I'm missing someone who has maybe already forgotten that I exist.

I felt like I had some time before my mother calls me again so I went into the bathroom. My knees slowly touched the ground in front of the toilet, my hands grasped the edges of it. I maybe missed this. I ate almost nothing this week but still, I feel so fucking heavy and gross I have to get it out. Without thinking about anything, I shoved two fingers down my throat, making myself gag as my body automatically went closer to the toilet. A sudden thought of Taehyung crossed my mind but I pushed it away as soon as I felt everything building up. I didn't stop, I teared up and some of them even fell from my eyes but some worthless tears are not going to stop me. My eyes closed as the familiar feeling came, finally.

I was not done. I needed to do something more but decided to do that after, because I know I'll hate myself even more.

I brushed my teeth again to cover the gross smell of throw up, did not bother to style my hair and when I went to check if something was in my bag that I might need, my mother called. I threw my bag underneath the bed, remembered what happened when I came to her fast, I came slow this time. I saw her talking, sorry, sucking up to some older guy. He looked old to me, I bet he even had children somewhere but here he was, waiting for a teenager to fuck. Disgusting.

I dug a nail in my palm, hid it behind my back as I approached the two. My mother patted his shoulder to get his attention on me, he frowned as he saw me. "That looks too innocent and cute, I don't like it." He grimaced. My mother jumped, her brows crushing together in anger as she painfully took my wrist and dragged me to her room. She slapped me once and stormed to her closet, throwing out such a revealing shirt and such short pants. I did not think my mother could own things like that, wow. I changed into that and may I say it was so fucking uncomfortable how can someone wear this? It was barely covering my chest, my ass could be seen from these shorts, gross.

I sucked it up and just came out again, the old man was having a pleased expression this time. "That's better!" He pulled out his wallet and just threw it to my mother while he was getting up and took my hand. Fucking end me now please.

He dragged me to his car, not caring how cold I was in these little pieces of clothes, after my mothers approving nod after she saw the money and pushed me into the passenger seat. Ran all the way to his side and hurriedly drove away, I pulled the seatbelt around me so if he crashed I don't die. Weird, I want to die but not by his driving. He did not even wait till he parks in front of his house, he stopped a few minutes drive from my house. It was near the store I went for Taehyung. I removed the seatbelt in hurry and tried to get out of the car.

He locked the doors.

I turned to him, pretty slowly, and as I expected I got pulled by my hair towards him. "You will regret that, you slut."

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Why. Is. Every. Chapter. Worse. Than. The. Last. One. 😂😂😂

Let's just say that it's almost... winter in this story bc I got lost 😅😂

Sorry~

Hope you have/had a great day~

ILY~~♡♡♡