Tom Holland & Harrison Osterfield Imagines

Forgive Me (Tom)

A.N: This was requested by Tom_Holand_Is_Bae. Thanks for the request, I hope you'll like it.

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I was laying in my bed, listening to the soft snores coming from my boyfriend who was already fast asleep next to me. As i hear him, i was thinking about what i did. I looked at the ceiling and couldn't help but hate myself for what happened. And the more i thought about it, the more i realised i didn't love the guy sleeping next to me. I never did in fact, and now i didn't understand why i did what i did. I was an horrible person. I replayed the scene again and again in my head.

I went out and as i had a few drinks, my friend Lucas decided to bring me home. When we reached my apartment i told him to come in, and we sat on the couch talking and having a few more drinks. And just before he left he did something that i wasn't expecting: He kissed me. It was rough as he pushed me to lay back on the couch. And that's when i fucked up everything. I didn't push him away, I don't why. I think i just felt lonely because has been away for almost 6 months now and with the alcohol running through my veins i didn't realized what was happening. Lucas started started to unbutton my shirt and right at this moment i heard the door open, a gasp and thud coming from the bag Tom dropped on the floor. I pushed Lucas away and I ran to Tom.

"Hey it's not what you think, i didn't realise what was happening, i just..." I started but he cut me off, his eyes filling with tears

"Don't waste your saliva to explain Y/N, I just can't believe you did that, i came home early to surprise you and i found you with someone else. I thought you loved me, and i never thought you would be capable of such a thing." And with that he took his bag from the floor and left. I called him but he never turned around

Since that day i'm hating myself for what i did. After that i felt miserable and Lucas tried to comfort me, but what he doesn't know is that i'm still miserable. And that's how i ended sleeping next to a man i don't love. I'm not happy, Lucas never made me happy and never will. The man I need to be happy is Tom but i fucked up everything. I don't know how is going, i didn't try to call him or text him because he probably doesn't want to hear about me. But since that happen he didn't post anything on Instagram. It's 2 in the morning and a stupid idea came to me. I probably shouldn't do what i'm going to do, but i had nothing to lose right now. I took my phone and sent a text

Y/N

I know you probably
hate my guts and you
p

robably don't want to
talk to me, but i'd like
to speak with you

I waited for a few minutes and when i thought he would not answer, my phone, which rested on my chest, vibrated

Tom

You're right i don't want
to talk to you but i can't
say i hate you, even if it's
2 am.

Y/N

Please let me talk to you.
Please listen to what i need
to tell you, and then i
promise i'll leave you alone
if that's what you want

Tom

Okay i will listen to you.
You can come over if you
want i wasn't sleeping anyway.

I didn't answer and jumped out of bed. I didn't care what Lucas would think if he'd wake up to and empty bed. Right now all i cared about was Tom. I ran out of my apartment and went straight to my car. I didn't waste any minutes and drove straight to Tom's flat.

When I was finally in front of his door, I took and deep breath and knocked. He opened the door and i was surprised to see him that way. He was wearing a sweat pants, his hair had grown a lot and were dirty and he also managed to grow a little beard. He looked like he hadn't taken care of himself for ages and i felt even more guilty. He let me come in without saying anything and when I entered his flat, I realized it was a mess too.

"So what did you want to tell me?"

"I'm sorry. I'm miserable without you, I can't live without you. I didn't mean to do that I was drunk and I didn't realize what I was doing. I know this isn't a pretext to cheat on you, but really I can't live like that. I feel dirty for what I did and I feel like the most horrible person. And I realized that what we had was so precious and I'm nothing without you, but you probably don't want to see me ever again. But I'm really sorry and you could give me a second chance. Please Forgive me." I had tears coming in my eyes and Tom looked at me. He walked pass me and went to sit on the couch. He looked at me and made a sign for me to sit. I did as he said and waited for his answer.

"I'll be honest with you, since we broke up, I'm a mess but I think you noticed that. And I can't live without you either, but I trusted you and you betrayed me." Ouch! That hurt but it was only the truth. That's when the tears started to fall. "I never thought you would be able to do that. I loved you so much and I still do. And I think everybody deserve a second chance, and I would lie if I told you that I didn't want to try again with you. But to be honest I don't trust you anymore, and it will take time for me to trust you again. But yes I forgive you." I nodded but smiled like crazy, I didn't thought he would react like that.

"Oh my god, I was sure you would just ask me to leave and tell me that you never want to see me again. I completely understand you don't trust me anymore but I'll do anything to win your trust back and to shock you everyday that I love you and only you!" I started to cry. Not because I was sad, but because I was happy the love of my life forgave me. And what he did next surprised me. He came closer to me and wrapped his arms around me, like he used to do before we broke up.

"What about Lucas?" He suddenly asked

"The second I come home I tell him I don't want him in my life anymore." I answered. And after that we spend the night in each other arms, with me expressing how much I was sorry.