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PART 50.

"Come in", Seb continued. 

Amy found herself moving but as if she were on robot mode. Her legs knew where to take her, as she made her way through the front door and without hesitating, into the living room. It was just as she remembered. The battered sofa, the plush rug. But one thing took her attention straight away and with it, her breath. On the mantel-piece was a photo of them both. It had been taken the night that Seb had proposed to her. They looked so happy. So full of life. Amy couldn't help it. She walked over and picked it up.

"You looked so beautiful that day", Seb spoke, walking up to besides Amy. "I think it was one of, if not the happiest day of my life".

Amy turned to face Seb. "Please Seb. I came here to talk. I'm already on the verge of tears as it is". Taking a seat on the sofa, Amy began. "I've seen that you guys have been doing great things. Your last CD was amazing. I went straight out to the shops and bought it. I listened to it over and over again until I could sing each and every word".

"Thank you", Seb replied. "So, how have you been?".

Amy had to fight back the reply that was on the tip of her tongue. If he had asked that to her a week ago, she would have told him that her life was hell due to him but she couldn't do that now. "It's been tough", she decided on. "Juggling work and Ceridwen". Amy realised that this was the first time she had mentioned her name to Seb and she wondered how he would react.

Seb stood there stunned. "Amy, I have to know. I wanted to be there for you. For our baby but I never had the chance. Please, I want to know everything".

The guilt that was running through Amy was threatening to engulf her. "Seb, she's so beautiful".

Seb began to smile. "I have a daughter?".

Amy nodded. "Yes. She looks just like you too. The same brown hair and green-grey eyes". Pulling a small photo from her purse, Amy handed it to Seb, who instantly teared up.

"She gets her beauty from her mother I think, Oh Amy, she is so beautiful. Can I keep this?".

"I knew that you would want to keep it", Amy replied. "I bought you a few more", she continued, handing the pictures to Seb, who instantly looked at each one, the smile on his face growing bigger with each one.

"How was the birth?", Seb enquired. " Did you have problems like the doctor's thought?".

"It wasn't good. I was in labour for eighteen hours. They sent me into hospital a couple of weeks before I went into labour due to my blood pressure getting higher and they looked after me. They also made me stay in hospital for a week after the birth to make sure that it went back to normal. Thankfully it did". Amy started to cry. "I really wish that you had been there Seb. I was on my own the whole time". Amy could see tears starting to form in Seb's eyes as she continued. "I thought that my mum would come and help me but she wasn't well enough to travel. I didn't have anyone else to ask. I stupidly let my friendship with Lucy fall apart and I kick myself every day for that. When I saw her the other day, she hated me and rightly so.  I hadn't heard from you before the birth and I thought that you didn't want to know. That you were happy being back with Jane".

Seb gasped. "You think that I had gone back to Jane?".

Amy nodded. She was finding it hard to broach this subject. "When I saw you with her that night, it was like my whole world had fallen apart and I was back there with John. I couldn't breathe. I couldn't think. I just knew that I had to get out of there". It was like the flood gates had now opened and Amy knew that there was no going back. "I wanted to get away from you. I couldn't believe that you would do something like that to me. I loved you. Hell, I still love you. But trust me, that does not mean that I will sit by and watch you with Jane".