Where does the time go?
Days that were filled with laughter. Days that as a child I would countdown to with excitement. It's all so different now.
Family that I loved, now gone. Friends that were like family, now drifted off. Nothing's the same. Nothing's the way I thought it would be.
Sometimes I wish I could just leave. Leave and start a new life somewhere else. Find someone that loves me and have a family of my own.
For most people the Holiday's are a happy time. For me it's filled with loneliness and sadness. I have my family and I'm blessed for them, but I've come to terms that the holidays will never be the same.
I wish that I could have the joy of a child again. Now I just wait till I have my own kids. To see the joy on their faces will make everything okay.
Until then I'll continue holding all of my emotions in. Until then I'll pray for happiness. Until then I'll put a smile on face and answer that I'm okay, when in reality I'm screaming for help. Until then..
