A Smile Can Hide It All (A Harry Styles Fanfiction)

Gone

Stella's POV:

The raindrops were already beginning to evaporate into what were the light, distant clouds of summer time.

I'd wear shorts once in a while, and thanked the sun for making me look like a normal teenage girl and not like the pale vampire-looking Stella I'd always been.

Moving to New York had probably been the best decision of my life.

Nevertheless, there were some things I missed about England every now and then.

But I could always travel with Harry.

It was quite ironic, really, how Harry was the one I'd been trying to get away from yet here I am, dating him.

Yeah, we hadn't really told anyone because of the hate and lack of privacy.

Well, the increased amount of hate, since I had already started getting tons of it.

We'd been going out for two months but it felt wrong sometimes.

And it was also quite ironic how the person I tried to get away from is the one person who will take me to England, the one place I tried to get away from.

But at the end, life is always surprising you.

I'd lost Ty, the one thing I did want.

My first, and only best friend wasn't my best friend anymore, and it was my fault.

Sometimes I'd cry at night, frustrated because I'd imagine a thousand other ways this whole situation could've turned out to be if it wasn't for that stupid mistake I'd made.

Not that kissing Harry was a mistake, but I felt I'd led Ty on and then just burst his bubble of hope.

In all sincerity, I did like Ty. And the only reason he hadn't kissed me was because I'd always back out, while I let Harry kiss me without hesitation.

I was drowning in this ocean of confusion and the worst part is I had no one to go to for advice.

Sure, I could go to Ann, but I needed Jane.

It had been nearly three months and she still wasn't allowed to see anyone.

I was starting to think maybe this wouldn't work out for Harry and I.

But I wouldn't know.

Ty and I hadn't talked at all, and when I saw him at Starbucks yesterday with Ann, something inside me boiled.

But it was my fault.

I'd hurt him. And now him and Ann were probably together.

Or at least that's what it looked like.

I'd tell Ann a few things, but I never told her how Harry asked me out. I didn't trust her enough. I know she tells most of the things to Ty, and I didn't want Ty to find out.

It would just hurt him more.

***

"I'm going to to see if I can talk to her today." I said, looking into the camera.

"Well I hope she's better. I'm sure she'll be fine. She's strong." Harry said, giving me an encouraging smile.

I wish I could hug him. But I couldn't. He was a couple thousand miles away.

"Yeah I hope." I said, my tone emotionless.

"Man, I wish I could be there for you." He said and I just faked a smile.

"It's not your fault. I'm fine, I've got friends." I lied.

The truth was, I had friends but none of them knew about Jane or my past. Ty was the only person who knew.