A Smile Can Hide It All (A Harry Styles Fanfiction)

I Run Back To You

Stella's Pov:

I was uncapable of feeling as I watched them take her away.

I just sat there. No emotions on my face showing.

I didn't shed a tear or say a word.

I was silent. All that I could hear was my own heartbeat.

After a few minutes of reminiscing on what had just happen, I finally had the strength to stand up.

I started walking out of the room, looking back at it one last time.

At least she's not stuck in here anymore.

I made my way out of the hospital, a strange feeling taking over me as I realized I wouldn't come back again.

I looked around, and my eyes suddenly met Kelsey.

As soon as she saw me, I knew she knew.

She walked over to me.

"Oh Stella I am- I am so sorry." She said and I just faked a smile.

"It's not your fault. I just wish I could've spent more time with her." I said, my voice dull.

"It was nice meeting you." I added and hugged her, before walking away.

"I'll miss you." She said and I walked out the door.

***

When I got home, I pretended it was just a regular day.

I fed the dog.

I made myself a sandwhich.

I watched TV.

But none of that was going to cut it.

I knew Ty, and I weren't on speaking terms but I couldn't just pretend Jane hadn't just died.

I found myself looking down at my phone screen, my finger debating whether or not to press the 'Call' button.

As if they had a mind of their own, my fingers tapped it and I put the phone up to my ear.

On the fourth ring, I heard his voice.

"Hello?"

"Ty..." I whispered, my voice soft.

I was afraid, and nervous. But what I felt the most was shame.

"Yeah..?"

"Jane...she-" my voice cracked, weakness taking over me.

There was a silence.

"Oh no. Oh my- I'm so sorry I..." He started, realizing what I meant. "I'll be right there." He said, before hanging up.

Part of me felt it was Harry who I was supposed to call, but I couldn't.

He didn't understand the situation the way Ty did. I knew it was unfair, but he wasn't here anyways.

He couldn't do anything over the computer screen. I needed a friend to be with me.

I knew pitying myself was pathetic but I just needed someone to talk to.

I couldn't just pretend I didn't miss Ty and that I was alright.

I wasn't.

Suddenly, I heard a knock on my door.

I stood up and opened it.

Ty walked in and I shut the door.

We both sat down and just stared at each other in silence.