A Smile Can Hide It All (A Harry Styles Fanfiction)

It wasn't what I thought...

It wasn´t what I thought...

Stella´s Pov:

"So you moved from Chesire?" I asked Baily, while taking a bite out of my ham and cheese sandwhich.

"Yeah, but we moved due to...family reasons." She said flashing me a smile, revealing her perfectly straight and white teeth. She was really pretty, golden long wavyish hair, popping green eyes and she had a perfectly shaped body. She was curvy, but it didn't make her look fat, just right. I honestly had no idea why she had chosen to be with me...

"Ah, I see. You like it here?" I asked her.

"Yeah, it's nice. I miss my old friends, but I can visit once in a while." She said. 

"So did you make any new friends here already?" I asked hoping she would say no.

I know it was pretty selfish of me, but I didn"t want to be a loner again. It always happened, I just hope it might be different this time.

"Yeah I made a few. I'm hanging out with Ally and her friends in the afternoon, maybe you should come." She said and that"s when I realized I could say bye to this friendship. I should've known. Did I really think I was going to make a friend? I knew it was too good to be true...

"Oh yeah, I don't think I can make it...I have...stuff to do." I lied.

I obviously did not have anything to do at all, other than going and sitting in my peaceful spot in front of the waterfall, and cry for what is about 3 hours missing my sister and trying to remember if there was any moment in my life in which I had been happy....oh yeah, when my sister was here, but she left. So any kind of happiness has basically been taken away from me.

"Oh, well maybe another time." She said politely. No. Not another time. Not ever, as long as you are friends with Ally, there is absolutely no chance of being another time.

"Yeah, maybe." I said, just as the bell rang. "Well, see ya later." I said and she smiled, and we both left. I was actually kind of happy I at least got one day to have someone talk to me at lunch. Since, well, literally forever...No, I have never had a friend before, but I guess you get used to it...

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After along day at school, I walked home and as usual, was shaking while I opened the front door, afraid of what I would see as I came in. Thankfully, my dad wasn´t home...not that it surprised me anyways, he never was home. I went up to my room and placed my backpack on my bed, and changed my now full of food top, and changed. I decided to just grab a black hoodie and pulled down the sleeves. I went downstairs and grabbed my headphones and headed out the door, not even bothering to see if my mom was home.

As I walked down the street, I spotted my secret entrance to my special spot. I looked around, to check if anyone was watching me, but there was no  one, so I decided to go in. I walked and walked until I finally heard the familiar sound of the water. The sound of it, somehow, relaxed me. It made me forget about everything going on in my life and just make me feel good. I finally reached the spot and sat down against the tree I always do. I chose that tree because it was the one that gave me the perfect view to the whole waterfall. I suddenly heard voices, not too close,but close enough for me to hear. I hid behind a bush and realized there was two boys at the top of the waterfall who were going to dive in, obviously using the rope. I watched them, as they argued about who would go in first. Finally they sorted it all out and the blonde boy grabbed onto the rope and screamed as he threw himself, it was a scream of excitement though. Then he motioned for the boy with light brown hair and pretty noticeable abs to jump in. As he did, I just watched and noticed I had been crying. I guess I was just jealous by the fact they were friends, and were happy, while I was lonely, just watching them have fun. I decided I no longer wanted to be there, and walked back home.

As I walked in and went up to my room again, I laid in my bed and thought about everything. How was it possible for someone´s life to be so unfair? I have really never liked using the word unfair, maybe you could say a less happy life. I didn´t understand why everything had to be the way it was. I knew it was good for my sister to live a happy life, and I guess my life had not been always the best at home, but I just coudn´t understand why there had to be all those extra things tat just made it all even more miserable than it already was. Why couldn´t  make just one friend? Just one. I really had no idea what I ever did to people in order for them to hate me, or make fun of me. Maybe it was just the fact that in school everyone will judge you by how you look and how you dress, or compare you to someone else, which in my case would be Ally. Just as I thought about her I remembered Baily, and suddenly my phone vibrated. Baily.

Hey Stella! Just checking to see if u were sure u didn´t want to hang out :)

Yes I want to hang out. More than anything in the world. Do you know how much it means for me to even have a contact besides adults on my phone? Of course I want to, but not Ally. Why did she always have to get in the way and make it all harder?

Sorry I can´t. Have homework and chores.

I tapped the send button and felt bad for the fact I was lying, but who could blame me? I couldn´t tell her about Ally. That would just make her hate me.

Oh alright maybe another time :(

Yeah sorry bye

And with that, our conversation was over. I stood up and heard my dad downstairs. He probably thought I wasn´t  home, since I´m usually out at this time. He always came late home, like at about 2 or 3 am. I slowly want down the stairs and heard my parents fighting. That´s when I remembered this was the reason I was never home at this time, this was why I missed Jane so freaking bad. I felt tears streams down my cheeks but quickly wiped them away, scared my dad would find out I was crying. 

"I don´t care! She can take care of herself! She´s been doing it since Jane left! Who cares!" I heard my dad shout. 

"Well then go ahead! Do whatever you please as usual!" I heard my mom shout, her voice cracking. Obviously indicating she was and had been crying. I had no idea what they were talking about and suddenly felt scared. Who am I freaking kidding?! I was terrified as heck! Just then I heard a loud noise. My dad had slapped her. She might not have been there for me when I needed her, but something came over me and I ran downstairs and slapped my dad. Just as I did, I immediately regreted it. 

He just stared at me in shock and I could see his eyes were full of anger and hate. I looked down at my hand noticing it was red and took a step back.

"I-I´m sor-sorry." I choked, trying to hold back the tears that were beginning to form. I then just looked away and spotted a box and beer next to it. 

"What the heck is wrong with you?! How dare you slap your own father?!" He yelled at me and I had totally forgotten my mom had been watching it all this whole time. Ignoring his question I just stared at the box.

"Wh-what is that? Why is there beer in here? What is in the box?" I asked nervously. Suddenly all of us were silent, all of us staring at the box and my dad unable to speak, as it was obvious he did not want to say what was in the box.

"What. Is. In. The. Box?" I asked once again. My mom and dad both looked at each other, as if trying to figure out how to tell me what was in the box. 

"Stella, I think we need to talk." My dad said, motioning me to take a seat on the couch with them. I suddenly felt nervous and wished Jane was here. Why couldn´t she be here again when I needed her?

A/N

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