Private School Life.

11.

Apart from the TV you could hear a pin drop, it was that quiet in the room.
I'm glad it's dark, because my jaw drops all the way down to the floor.
Zack stood there, smiling at me and holding my hand.
I  stand with my back directly turned to Kendall and I feel that his fingertips stroke the back of my upper leg.
I carefully touch his fingers with my free hand and hold them.
What should I do?
What was the safest answer to this...?
Safest to me, to everyone.
I swallow the lump in my throat and say: "Yes."
Kendall's fingers let go of mine and I could hear him sigh.
Zack pulls me closer and kisses me, "I'm glad you said that!"
I have no answer to that, so I just smile at him.

Zack decides to stay a little longer and takes a controller.
I sit down on James' bed and hope for the best.
I'm afraid to look into Kendall's way, but I do it anyways.
From what I can see in this darkness, he's leaning against his pillow, face turned to the TV screen, sipping another bottle of beer.
Logan, Dustin, Carlos and Zack are so in the game that they don't notice that Kendall's grabbing his sixth bottle of beer.
What's with this guy?!

About an hour later, when it was getting pretty late, Zack gets up and walks over to me.
He sits down next to me and gives me a kiss, "Well, I would ask you to come to my room, but I have a boring room mate who isn't going out so he's in the room too. And I don't want it to get awkward."
I chuckle, "That's okay. James will probably be back in a few and I can go to my own room then."
"You wanna come over the whole day tomorrow?" Zack ask, smiling.
I nod, "Sure, I know where to find you."
He gets up, pulls me up too and plants a long kiss on my lips, "Goodnight babe!"
Closing the door behind him, I hear Carlos, Dustin and Logan yell at each other.
Apparently someone cheated and now they don't want to play anymore.
"I'm leaving!" Logan states as he gets up, "You guys suck and I won!"
"Tss, did not!" Carlos adds has he gets up too.
All three drank a tiny bit too much and are now getting annoyed by each other.
"Come on, we're leaving." Dustin yawns as he walks over to the door and turns to me, "You okay with that?"
 I nod,"I'll wait here for James to be back, no worries."
Dustin, Logan and Carlos all give me a big hug, wish me a good night and head off to their own rooms.
I'm left behind with a drunk and possibly asleep Kendall.

"He's not coming back." I hear Kendall mumble in his pillow half an hour later.
"I know." I state as I walk over to the TV and turn it off.
"You're crashing here again?" he asks with his back still turned to me.
"I guess. If that's okay with you." I mumble.
I see him sitting up straight and taking off his shirt, "Sure, whatever. It's not like I have a choice."
"Uh thanks, I guess." I sigh as I let myself fall down on James' bed.

I'm not tired at all and can't fall asleep after all things that happened today.
"You don't love him." I hear Kendall say from under his blanket.
"Says who?' I snarl, getting a little annoyed by Kendall's behavior.
"Me." he states, "You can't go on and tell nice stories to Zack about me not loving Kelsey and that she should know that as soon as possible, when you don't live by what you're saying yourself."
I sigh, "Go to sleep Kendall."
He sits up straight, "No."
He walks over to me and sits down by my legs.
"Kendall, you're drunk. Please go to sleep." I say as I sit up a little.
"No. And I'm not drunk." he says, crossing his arms.
"Why do you even care about me and Zack?" I finally ask him.
He shrugs, "I just think you shouldn't do that to him. Or yourself. That's all. You should be with someone you love. Not with someone who loves you and you just happen to like him a little."
I keep silent and Kendall comes a little closer to me, "Why are you with him. Tell me."
I sigh, "He's nice. He cares about me and I like him a lot. And I wish I could love him, I really do but-"
"You love someone else?' Kendall adds.
I nod, not knowing if Kendall saw it.
"Then why aren't you with that other guy?" Kendall mumbles.
"Reasons." I state.
"Fair enough," Kendall says with  chuckle, "Should I stop talking about this?"
"Maybe." I shrug.

Kendall smiles, leans in and gives me a kiss on my forehead, "Good night."
"Good night. And uh, thanks for the talk." I reply.
"No problem, the best talks are in the middle of the night with drunk people, ha ha." he jokes.
"I thought you said you weren't drunk."  I chuckle.
He shrugs and walks over to his bed, "Maybe I kinda am. Just a little. But drunk people always tell the truth!"
I pull my blanket up to my chin and turn to Kendall's bed.
"Hey [Y/N]?" Kendall whispers.
"Hm?'' I answer.
"Did you know I called dibs on you the first day we all met you?" Kendall mumbles with a sleepy voice.
I chuckle a little, "Shut up."

The next morning I wake up due to my phone that's buzzing.
"Ugh who the frick is getting me out of my sleep?'' I yawn as I search for my phone.
I grab it and read the text message I just got:

Hey baby, are you up already? I hope you stop by soon! Xxx Zack

"What was that?" I hear Kendall mumble from under his blanket.
His pillow's on the ground and I pick it up.
"Text message." I say as I throw his pillow on his head, "Get up! Or not, do what you want."
"If I could do what I want, I wouldn't be lying in this bed right now." Kendall states with a grin.
He quickly got dressed.
"I gotta go change too, Zack's waiting for me to come over." I state as I walk to the door.
Kendall smiles, "Alright, I'll see you with dinner then!"
I quickly nod and head over to my room, entering it without knocking.
"Oh oops." I say as I see Annabelle and James lying in each others arms.
I'm glad they're wearing clothes.
I quickly change into my regular clothes and am about to head back.
"Wait, where did you sleep tonight?" James asks with a concerned look.
"Kendall's." I say as I search for my shoes.
"Fair enough, Where are you going now?!" he continues.
"Zack's! We're kinda together." I say as I tie my shoes.
"Whoow nice." James yells while Annabelle frowns.
"Yup, he asked me to be his girlfriend yesterday.  So yeah that." I say as I get up.
"Wow, anything else we missed?' Annabelle smirks.
I nod, "Actually yes, Kelsey and Kendall are over. But you should ask him about it, I'm sure he'd be happy to tell you!"
"Will do! Have fun little niece!" James says as he waves at me.
I smile and walk out the door.

Knocking on Zack's door, I hope that roommate of his isn't there.
Zack opens the door and pulls me into a hug, "Morning babe. How'd you sleep?"
I answer his question with a smile and a kiss, "Fine, you?'
"Thinking about you the whole night, cause you're so sweet." he says.
How cheesy.
The two of us lay down on his bed and talked about a few things for a while.
Zack keeps on kissing and hugging me.
It's sweet of him, but I'm not that much into it.
"So uh how's Kelsey?' I try.
"Oh she's still mad, but she'll get over it." Zack chuckled, "She thinks Kendall's an asshole. Which he is though."
"No he's not." I state as I get up a little.
"Whatever. I think he's stupid." Zack laughs, "And dumb."
"Zack, Kendall's a friend of James. And of mine. I don't want you saying that about him." I raise my voice a little.
"Pfft how can he be someone's friends? What good does he have?" Zack jokes, but I know he means it.
He sit up straight, "He's a good talker and listener. I can talk to him about everything that's bothering me. Just like last night."
"You stayed with him last night? I thought you were going to your own room." Zack frowns.
"James never got back. So I slept in James' bed." I state.
"With Kendall in the same room?" ha asks.
I nod, "Well yeah, it's his room too."
Zack grabs my arm, a little too hard, "I don't like that [Y/N]. I don't trust that guy."
"I can take care of myself, thank you." I say as I try to get out of his grip.
Zack pulls me closer, looks me in the eyes and says: "I don't want you being around him anymore, got that?"
Zack's look scares me and I quickly nod, "Okay, okay."
"No Kendall." he says with an angry tone.
"No Kendall." I whisper as I look down to the ground.