Blooming Words

your smile

"Nothing"

You said there was nothing you wished to change about me

Nothing that could change the way you see me

Nothing that could change the way you loved me

But constantly,
You want to bring me joy

Constantly,

You want to make me smile

Constantly,

You wish to give me your smile

"A smile will make you more beautiful"

"A smile will make you a joy to be around"

"A smile will change your perspective on the world"

"Just smile," you told me

But I won't

It is not who I am

It is not what I do

It is not how I see

You try to change me

I am not enough for you, without a smile across my face

I am not who you wish to have, without a grin from cheek to cheek

I am not what you thought I was, without a smirk changing how I work

It is not who I was or who I am

Nor will it be anyone you wish for me to be

It's the small things you see

The small things you change

The small things that will tear us apart

Then you too will see,

How hard it is to smile for me