Everybody sees me deny people, or act like I don't give a fuck
But nobody sees when I put forth effort and it's just not enough
Or when I take a leap a leap of faith and risk my trust
Only for it to come back to me on a continuous loop of bad luck
When my efforts are ignored and my trust is always fucked up
Because I'm an open book but I'm told I talk too much
But the one personality I wanna open up to feels so out of touch
And she doesn't see her wrongs, just mine. But says she wants to work it out making the shit tough
When I'm in need, everything is quiet
And I'm sneaky but I don't do shit
I work a lot and I'm tired but still means I can't be trusted
When does it pay off
Me actually going against my fear and letting somebody in
When will the regret stop coming back and the "I told you so's" begin
When can I stop loving people that won't love me back
But they want me in their lives and won't let me go
But will point out the things I lack
That keep them from loving me how I want
And what'll aid in my sanity
Because I'm dramatic and their fears and wants are more important but they're not the same for me
I just wanna be okay and for everything to stop seeming so hard
Because then I get discouraged and all I do is cry and I hate that part
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In My Mind
Non-FictionThis is honestly just a collection of short poems that reflect my inner feelings when I just need to vent. I'm choosing to share them because they could possibly help someone in a similar situation and it helps to tell somebody even if they just rea...
