In My Mind

Enough

"U doing okay?"
Nah just stay away
Because my well-being wasn't enough at first to make you stay
And my hearts big but I still don't have space
For selfishness and bullshit reasons to "explain your case"
Because when I needed you the most
Your attention started to stray
And my emotions were ignored because they were in your way
Of you only focusing on yourself and the games you play
Because I stopped having the time and patience to keep doing shit your way
So we ended because my heart was done the other day
Because I stopped lying to myself in hopes that your hearts mind would sway
But now I can't fathom even a check up text or a formal hey
A year so close turned to a forever so distant
After you broke down walls and guards of resistance
After you saw me at my lowest and pushed against my hesitance
Only for you to fuck with me at my low point for all sorts of irrelevance
And then leave me and expect me not to be rude and militant
Do you expect me to come back
Like I always have because I loved you so much that regardless
I was determined to last
I was focused on making it past
All the trivial shit, that you'd get mad and lemme try to blow over all the bullshit you came at me with
You knew my past and stayed close
To mend a heart that broke
I look back and gotta laugh because I used to not believe when you spoke
Of words of kids and marriage and being close with ya folks
But inside I'm mad and I'm hurt
From that dream I woke
To lies and alibis that didn't quite make sense but the Love was to intense to focus on what possibly may have been
The mistakes that you'll make
Because you know I've always been solid as fuck
And you never believed I was down for you because you usually had trash luck
With females playing you and saying boo you're more than just a fuck
But now you played the best thing
And now you can't keep up
Because I'm through and our close hearts will now forever be out of touch
Because your bullshit check ups and lies now, just aren't enough