Please, Don't Walk Away {Niall Horan Fanfic}

Chapter 24

Matt’s POV

Life is a roller-coaster. It has its ups and it downs, the moments when you’re terrified and your heart beats erratically, the moments when it’s so exhilarating your left breathless. Life was filled with this moments, we were living on one big roller coaster.

My life had been filled with these moments, some moments had been so painful I wished it all to end but then some moments were so bright that life was just perfect.

This was one of the moments were my life seemed to have a down.

I had woken up two weeks ago, only to be interrogated by police and doctors, my body had healed but my mind was far from it. I wouldn’t, no couldn’t let any man near me without having terrible flash backs that left me in a sobbing mess.

Even Niall.

On the day I awoke I was holding on by a thread, I hugged my family members and friends, made some jokes and tried to hold the fear at bay. But when Niall and Lan bantered terrible flash backs consumed me. After that I was too scared to let anyone close, only woman could get close to me even then I flinched back.

Niall bless him, had stuck with me all the way. He had broken down when I screamed and cried when he got close to me, he had cried and begged me to let him hold me. Over the last two weeks he had slept outside my room, checking up on me occasionally but never getting to close.

My heart ached at not being with him, I had nothing against men but somewhere in the back of my mind I did. Tyler and Tom had scared me to the point I couldn’t even let my Father be in my room for too long.

When the Police had sent to male officers I had screamed and clawed at them desperate to get away. Suffice to say they had to evidence they needed to lock Tyler and Tom away until they died.

But that wouldn’t heal me. While they got to go to jail and never be bothered again, I was stuck in a hospital bed after waking up from a coma and couldn’t let anybody close to me. They had ruined my life, I was physically, emotionally and mentally scared and I feared I would never be me again.

*

“Hello hunny,” Janice smiled sadly from the doorway. “How are you doing today?”

“Same as always,” I croaked my voice clocked with tears. “Nightmares. They got worse each night, I can’t even handle Dad being in the room now in fear of being hurt. My own Father!”

“It was pass,” she cooed slowly stepping closer. “You weren’t just going to be healed fully, you have gone through too much trauma in your life for that. It will take time for you to heal.”

“I miss Niall! Nine months Jan. Nine freaking months without him and when I wake up I can’t even look at him! It’s killing me,” I whispered tears slipping down my cheeks.

“Listen to me Matt,” Janice said and sad in the chair next to me, the fear rose in my chest at her so close. “To close?”

“Yes,” my voice cracked. “Please.”

“Hey it’s ok, I’m moving back.” Janice slowly moved the chair backwards. “Everything heals with time. Niall has waited for you to wake up, as long as you’re alive and breathing he will wait as long as it does for you to be near him.”

“I want him to hold me,” I whimpered wrapping my arms around myself. “I want to talk to him and love him, but I can’t.”

Janice looked thoughtful for a second before her eyes lit up and she smiled. “I’ll be right back!” Then she was running out the room.

*

I had fallen asleep waiting for Janice, and now a nightmare was plaguing my mind.

Tyler and Tom above me, there knives stained with my blood, panic spread through me. “Please!” I screamed. “Stop!”

“Never,” the voices all around whispered and just like that they seemed to stop.

“Shh baby, there not real, you’re safe and sound and I am never letting anything hurt you again. It’s ok baby, just go to sleep shhhh, I’m here.”

Then I fell into a dreamless sleep.

*

When I woke up the room was bright, my eyes stung at the brightness of it and quickly closed them. For the first time I had a decent night’s sleep. No nightmares, no fears.

“You awake yet?”

I jumped at the voice the fear coming back, my eyes snapped open looking for the man in the room. No one. Had I imagined it?”

“Hello?”

“Hey baby.”

My eyes landed on a… walkie talkie?

“What the-”

“Janice’s idea. She realised we both were doing that good, so she gave one to me and one to you. That way you I’m not near you but we can still talk.”

My heart fluttered, and the fear washed away. “I miss you.”

“I miss you too baby, I miss you so God damn much it hurts.”

“I’m scared Niall,” I whimpered grasping the device in my hand. “I’m scared of everybody, and the flash backs and nightmares get worse! I’m so scared.”

“Hey baby its ok. Nothing and nobody is going to hurt you again, the doctors will help and before you know it we will be at home.”

I bitterly smiled. “I can barely look at people N, how in hell am I going to manage going home?”

“Because I’ll be with you every step of the way.”

“Do you promise?”

“I promise. I love you.”

So much emotion was in his voice that it made tears fall. My Niall, the boy who would do anything to protect me and always stay by my side even when I couldn’t be next to his.

“I finally get way you’re fans call you the Irish Snowflake.” I chuckled weakly.

“They call me that? Damn I was hoping for sexy as hell or Irish Devil, not that! Why do they call me it baby?”

“Because one you’re Irish duh, and a snowflake is delicate and beautiful, you just want to keep it the way it is for ever.”

“You’re saying I’m a snowflake?”

I laughed. “Yes, my Irish Snowflake.”

“I am not having that as pet name baby.”

“And why not?” I giggled for the first time in weeks I felt human.

“That is an insult to my manly pride!”

“But you’re my manly snowflake.”

“Not happening baby, why don’t you call me sexy? Or stud? Or even babe? Please anything but that!”

“Ok ok…. Love you snuggly Poo!”