Acquiescence (A JohnDave Story)

I do Adore

John looks on, helpless, as he watches the supposed love of his life break down crying in front of him. 

He wants so badly to tell him. More than anything in the world - but the words get caught in his throat and anytime he tries the stuttering makes his sentences incomprehensible.

He knows exactly what he has to do but he fumbles with his thoughts:

What do I do? Oh god. I don't know how to kiss. I'm going to mess this up.

Something subconcious worms its way into his mind:

He doesn't care. 

He confessed his love to you - wholeheartedly - a scene you've been making up in your head for months, and all you can do is sit there dumbfounded. Who the hell cares if you mess it up? He's sobbing. He says he's going to lose you. He's so scared. You've never seen him afraid before. For the love of god, do someth-

John Egbert, a skinny ball of hormones and anxiety who can't do the most basic human functions without medication, can't sleep, can't interact with other people, couldn't even confess the feelings he had for months on end, not to his doctor, not to his friends -- somehow pulls the tiniest bit of courage from the deepest corners of his heart, surges forward, and kisses Dave. Directly on the lips.

The kiss was clumsy, of course - Dave's lips were slippery and tasted of salt from the heavy crying he'd been doing, John was very inexperienced, both were nervous wrecks - but it was the best either had ever endured (one never having endured one before, but... logistics don't matter. They're happy.) John, finally gaining the ability to speak again, if very shakiliy, had to stop the kiss to whisper wobbly comforts to him. 

"God, Egbert," whispered Dave, regaining the strength to wipe his tears. "You sure you've never kissed anyone before? That was fuckin' rad." John beamed at him - It felt so good to hear the cockiness slip back into Dave's voice, the uneven whimpers of "I'm sorry", "Please",  and "Don't leave, I couldn't do it anymore" were sort of destroying him. "You're a big liar, Dave. That was awful and you know it."

Dave sits up and lets out a long, shaky breath. "Whatever, nerd. My first kiss was with someone I barely cared about. You could be the worst kisser in the world and this would beat that one by lightyears. At least you got to kiss the coolest guy in town. No, wait - in the entire state."

John smiles to himself, trying to keep the tears at bay. I did. God, I really did. 

"Thought you weren't a homosexual." He's back. What an asshole. What an adorable asshole. "Only for people as hot as you." Dave gasps in mock surprise. "Oh, shit! Egbert's sassing me? What is this? Sorcery?" He sinks into the couch and sighs. "So, are.. are we gonna date? Is that a thing?" John's face lights up. "Dave, I drove myself to sickness asking that question. And... y'know, I think the only cure is you being my boyfriend." Dave groans.

"Gross." But he's smiling, nearly ear to ear, and John knows that he feels the exact same way. He's so happy. He's still crying, despite Dave's attempts to cheer him up. ("hey man, you got me to date you. vice versa. we're happy now. you're happy now. john... come on.) Dave scoots a bit closer to his new boyfriend and puts his arm around him. "Now we gotta brag to Rose because we're clearly better than her and Jade."

Dave fishes his phone out of his pocket, taking a picture of him and an ecstatic John.

--- turntechGodhead began pestering tentacleTherapist and gardenGnostic.

TG: [attachment] guess what bitches

GG: i can only assume that this is a relationship thing, so ... aw!! congrats guys :)

TT: I knew you could do it! Congratulations. However... you aren't going to turn this into a competition, are you?

TG: hell yeah i am

john is cuter by himself than the two of you combined so i've already won. where's my medal?

GG: [attachment] i'd say we're about equal, really! also, did you wanna come over tomorrow for a christmas party? john's gonna be here anyway and your brother will be with jake, obviously, so i thought it'd be good to ask!

TG: we're far superior. a definite yes on the party. christmas wouldn't be christmas without me.

TT: Okay, Dave, you're interrupting our movie. Go do guy things with John.

TG: oooh, a movie. romance.

also, gross.

--- turntechGodhead has ceased pestering tentacleTherapist and gardenGnostic.

"You ready to go to bed? Crying always gets me tired so I can only imagine what's going on with you right now." Only now does Dave realize the weight on his eyelids - partly from the overwhelming act of keeping a secret for so long, partly because of the effort it took to reveal it, and mostly because it was 3:00 a.m.

"Alright, Egbert. But you've gotta sleep next to me. That's the deal." John laughs. "I'll take that offer. Gladly."

John finds a couple throw blankets and the two make a little fort to sleep under. They cuddle up next to eachother, conversation giggly and lighthearted, until...

 "John... I know I act like a douchebag. A lot. But I love you. I do, I really ... really love you. I'm going to try and make sure I never confuse you about that. I'm going to be better about this whole persona thing. I don't mean to be such an asshole to you, it's kind of... kind of a coping thing. I'm sorry."

John stops fluffing his pillow abruptly. "You don't need to change because ... I mean, I love everything about you. I don't care. I know they're all just jokes. It's okay, Dave. Don't be sorry."

He can hear Dave sniffling in the darkness. He snuggles just a bit closer. "Goodnight. I love you."

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i am sad and lonely so i put everything i could ever hope for in fanfictions instead. i hope you guys enjoyed what came out of years of reading cute romance novels. i love to write 'em :3

also, OOPS I LIED!! there will be another chapter! i had no idea the potential this chapter had, no idea how long it'd be ... so the christmas party will be next chapter! and i'll try to release it around christmastime so the mood will be right. thanks for putting up with my antics, friends. see you soon <3