The Crash That Changed Everything

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i walk home and dale walks up behind me and grabs my shoulder. "get off of me, why are you even here, i told you i forgave you but that doesn't mean that i want to be with you, i have a boyfriend." i look at him and my hair sticks to my face as tears fall from my face.

he looks at me with his eyes glistening with tears. "i know you have a boyfriend, how did you know i didn't want my best friend back? but you didn't think of that did you, you think that just because you were to drunk, you think i raped you well just what, i didn't." 

dale continues, "i cared enough to take you home after you woke up and i did absolutely nothing but kiss you, do you even know what rape is?"

i feel tears rush down my face and start to talk, "carman told me you took me to a room and stayed with me for a wile when you walked out before you came back to me she found me in that bedroom with no clothing on!, how do you explain that!"

he looks at me and says, "you were in the hot tube, i took you out...at least im still talking to you."

i look up into his light blue eyes with tears falling off of my face. "you don't understand, i thought you raped me and i still think you did, dale, you have to understand that i have issues right now and i don't want you to be one!"

his eyes disconnect to mine. he seems annoyed now.

"i have tried to help you, have tried to be there for you and every time i try, to you stab me in thew back , or even just... you know what, forget it."

he walks away and i can tell he was crying because when he turned around to look at me for one last time, my heart sank to the bottom of my chest. his eyes were red and i fell in the middle of that side walk and i cried for him to come back to me, i saw him hesitate as he walked bake to kota's  house. 

it starts to rain but i stay sitting there in the middle of that sidewalk crying at the fact that i just lost the one person i should have trusted this whole time.