The Crash That Changed Everything

seven

I sit down at one of the picnic tables outside as the rain smacked agents the umbrella above the table.

Dakota sits with me as were by our selves. people stare at us as we eat in silence outside in the rain through the big glass windows. I look in the window to see Carmen looking at me with her new friends and Troy. I feel a tear fall down my cheek and I look at what she's laughing at. it's me.

I tell Dakota I'm going to the bathroom. " let me walk you." I look down at my shoes and clearly state, " I can walk myself" he looks at me and says "but Vivian..." I cut him off and tell him "DAKOTA! I just want to go to the bathroom you can stay here ill be right back." he nods his head and I walk off.I secretly slide a plastic fork in my pocket as I walk into the loud cafeteria.

I look at Carmen lightly then look away. its to hard to see your only friend betray you. I look at myself in the bathroom mirror. I look at my light mixed face and at my dark brown eyes... why would anyone even look at me. I pull the fork out and break it to where all four prongs are off and the tip is very sharp. I pull the sleeve of the jacket that's been in my locker. I pull the sharp edge of the fork up but the door opens and I run into a stall.

I hear two girls talking to each other I slide the fork back in my pocket. " Vivian is such a spaz don't you think Carman?" I then realize it's Carmen and Jenny. I pull the fork out again quietly and drag it along my wrist I do that four times before I realize the have left without me hearing anything they have said.I walk out the bathroom and back outside without looking at Carman but I hear her call my name. I look at Dakota as he stands up and asks me why I'm crying. I tug at my sleeve as I say I'm fine.

"Vivian you're clearly not fine you haven't been to school in weeks and you bearly talk to anyone, not even Carman." I look him at his deadly eyes and say to him loudly, "you think that's my fault! I've tried but she's either with Jenny off talking about how much of a spaz I am or with your best friend getting busy, so I'm am sorry for not being good enough but I am trying ok!" he looks at me and then my sleeve he takes a step closer and says, "how would you know they're talking about you?"

"I heard them in the bathroom." he keeps walking closer slowly then starts talking again, "is that all you did in the bathroom?" I look down at the black jacket to see a darker stain seeping through.he grabs my other arm and pulls the sleeve up showing the four clean cuts. I hug him not caring that blood is getting on my jacket. "let's go clean this up." he tells me. we start walking and I keep my sleeve up revealing the cuts. we walk into the cafeteria. everyone stays as put except Carmen she stands up and Jenny looks over at me and smiles then says, "not everyone is perfect especially her, don't you think Carman?" I look at her as we keep walking tears falling as it there the parts of our friendship.

we go into the boy's bathroom and he looks at me as if it doesn't matter.carman runs in and asks me if I'm okay. I look at her and screech as I notice Dakota put my wrist under the water then teller painfully, "first you call me a spaz in the girl's bathroom as I slit my wrists then you ask m3e if I'm ok. carmen im always there for you can't you just be there for me for once in your life? but is too hard for you to do even that. I was raped then I was hit by another car with a guy who always has my full back cause you're not there to catch me."

the bell rings and I pull my sleeve down and walk out. I walk into the hallway and go straight to my locker then walk straight out of the school not saying a word to anyone.