Short Stories

Excuses

I'm not making excuses. But I have my reasons and there's a difference. What else am I supposed to do when you know about my past and what's going on right now. You cannot demand me to be willing to go through with your child like notions of love.

From the beginning you knew that I was not all sunshine and rainbows. You knew that I was not going to try to make your romanticized notion of love come true. You knew that I was not a prince charming who would bend backwards just to make sure that you never faced another moment of pain and sadness.

So like I was saying, I'm not making excuses. But I have my reasons and there's a difference. What else am I supposed to do when all I've known is pain and sorrow. You can't expect me to love you without being scared of losing you. Of losing the light at the end of tunnel, a dark and eerie tunnel that has has been my life.

But that was before you. Before I knew that true love was real, and that I was capable of obtaining it. Of obtaining a love that consumes and scares me every single day. A love that casted all the shadows of my dark past where they belong, in the past.

Now, I only hope that I will have your love from now on.. .

Truly yours,

Luke.

My heart bangs violently against my ribs cage as I watch her read the letter. A letter that is long overdue.

I try not to look away nervously as she looks up at me with her bright blur eyes.

"You alone have brought love, hope and happiness, emotions that I am still trying to learn to feel and show. Yes, I am still rough around the edges. But if you promise that you will stick with me as I try to soften those edges up, I promise you to try my hardest to make you happy." I hastily say trying to break the silence.

"What are you saying Luke?" She hesitantly asks.

"I'm asking you, Jane Murphy, if you will do me the honor of becoming Jane McNeill?" I ask as I kneel in front of her and open the box that contains my mom's ring.

"Oh Luke! It would be my honor to become Mrs.McNeill." Jane says she leans over an engulfs me in a soft kiss.

The End.