Just Jump ➵ TomTord

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          HELLO, POSSIBLE NEW READERS.
UH,,, TW:: SELF-HARM,,, LIKE RIGHT IN THE F CKING BEGINNING
(i wrote this like 3 years ago,,, past me was dumb & i didn't put tws. the whole book is a tw. only near the end did i put a tw because i remembered about the tws. i deeply apologize.)

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| 8:23 PM|

【Tom】

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"Ow!"

I squeaked, stopping. I dragged the knife away from my hand as my blood left a trail. I dropped my knife and continued staring at my arm.

Cuts everywhere. Blood everywhere. I wanted to tell someone. I wanted to stop, but it was too fascinating to do. I felt like I did the valid thing. I sighed, leaning on my bed behind me. I cocked my head to the side, noticing light shine under my door.

I remember not closing the lights. I heard several knocks on my door. I immediately stood up, knocking over my salt shaker.

I pulled my sleeve down and unlocked my door. The moment I swung the door opened, my eyes burned from the sudden sunlight. "Tom, You ready for movie night?" Asked my friend, Edd.

I rubbed my 'eyes' before I responded. "Uh, Yeah, yeah. Sure." I muttered, staring down the hallway. Edd grabbed my arm and pulled me out the door. "ACK!" I yelled in pain, slowly clutching my arm. Edd turned around and looked at me.

He stared at the arm he grabbed onto and saw red stains. "Tom, what's this?!" His tone getting higher as he panicked. "Did you do something?" Edd grabbed onto my sleeve and attempted to pull it up.

I jerked my arm away, hiding it. "I-I didn't do anything. It must've been something else. Let's just go." I averted my 'eyes'. Edd stared at me, surprised of what I just did, but soon snapped back. "Alright then. Let's go."

Edd and I walked into his apartment and already saw Matt organizing everything. Putting two pillows at each corner of the couch and some at the bottom for comfort. He folded the blankets and set them on the couch, kind of looking like a King's Throne.

Edd ran up to his couch and tackled Matt. "Rawr! Did you choose a movie?" Edd asked Matt. Matt mantled and pushed Edd off himself. "Of course I did! We're watching Kidnap!" Matt sat up and leaned against the pink pillow he placed on the floor.

I sat on the couch and literally took the entire couch for myself. Edd and Matt didn't care as much and just went along with it. During the movie, the popcorn finished and Edd dashed to the kitchen.

Matt got up and poured all of us a drink. He gave me my drink first and waited for me to drink it before he did. His eyes, staring at me as I took a sip. "Well?" He asked. Something was off. Edd came running back and stared at me as well, with somewhat the same face.

They just stood there. I bought the cup down to my chest and looked at the cup. It looked normal. I pressed my hand against my throat, feeling a slight sting of pain.

I decided to cough and thought it would clear my throat, instead, blood dripped out. I continued to cough up blood while Matt and Edd had these huge smiles on their face. "Guys--GUYS?!" I yelled, reaching out to them.

Their eyes began to bleed. "You know, we love you, Tom." Edd croaked. "Yeah, we love you." Matt laughed. 'We love you' began repeating everywhere, but Edd and Matt's mouth wasn't moving.

Was it in my head? Is this a dream? Someone help me! SOMEONE, HELP ME!

Edd shook me once more, this time more vigorously. "TOM!" He yelled. I bolted up, breathing heavily. Matt had a cup in his hand and was almost about to cry. He sighed in relief. I grabbed the cup Matt had and threw it to the ground, with no second thoughts, I punched him.

"Tom! Stop! What's wrong with you?!--" Edd screeched, grabbed my arms and held me back. Matt fell to the floor, rubbing the bruise I had left on his face. "M-My face!" He cried and raced to the bathroom.

Edd stared at me, completely filled with anger and worry. "What— What's wrong with you?!" He yelled. He grabbed my sleeve and pulled me down. "Please tell me!" He cried and wrapped his hands around my waist, clearly crying.

I patted his head. "S-sorry. I had a nightmare... It involves you and Matt, and—" Edd stood up, shaking his head. "It's okay, I forgive you. But, be a little more considerate next time."

He smiled. I wiped away his tears. "Yeah, okay." This would've gone better if I wasn't invited, I thought to myself. Edd went to go check on Matt and I was alone in the living room. I stumbled off into the kitchen, opening the fridge, looking for food. My mind trailed off the opened fridge and onto the counter, staring at a knife that had been forgotten.

I closed the fridge and picked up the knife, satisfied of its edge. I rolled up my sleeve and heard Edd trying to calm Matt down in his room. I gently placed the knife against my wrist, where a previous cut was made. I shifted the knife slightly, right above that cut.

I pressed the knife deeper into my skin, seeing blood spread across. I heard footsteps and a conversation inch towards me. I grabbed a nearby napkin and wiped the cut and knife clean as Matt tapped my shoulder. I pulled my sleeve back down. "Hey, Matt." I nervously smiled.

Matt, with tears still in the corners of his eyes, crossed his arms. Edd, a few feet away, mouthed 'Apology!' to me. I focused on Matt and extended my arms. "I'm sorry, Matt. I just freaked out." Matt slowly inched towards me, engaging in the hug.

I could hear his quiet sniffles. "So, Should we continue the movie?" Matt asked. I put my hands in my pocket. "Wait, you guys didn't finish the movie?" I asked, trying not to let my newest cut effect my hoodie or drip down my hand, causing them to notice I've been cutting myself.

Matt grabbed my hand and dragged me to the couch, putting me on the ground where he last sat. He hopped on the couch and sighed. "It's my turn now, Tom!" I chuckled. "Alright, Matt." Edd resumed the movie and sat next to me, wrapping one arm around my neck.

"Just relax, okay?" Edd chuckled and focused back on the tv. I sighed. "Yeah, sure." I sarcastically muttered and slumped down.

...I should stop playing with sharp objects...

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