Just Jump ➵ TomTord

『14』

Thunderstorms during Summer? Is that possible? Well, yes it is! I've experienced it for about THREE TIMES— WHAT THE HECK, WORLD?? ITS FCUKING SUMMER

Also, my cat is a demon now (note the photo above)

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T O M

Adding new cuts to my littered skin was overrated, but it did the job quite well.

I don't think anyone else was awake. I mean, I didn't want to risk leaking my blood out when the sun still shined. During the night was more... safe, I guess.

Sometimes the pain was crazy, I'd have to force myself not to scream or cry in agony.

The thunder outside was making things better. Sometimes small yelps would escape my lips but the thunder would cover that. I already knew Matt had a hard time with thunder, so he was either sleeping with Edd or sobbing in his bed.

I couldn't care less if I had to be completely honest.

I stood up and dropped the sharp kitchen utensil and unlocked my door. I stepped outside, taking notice of the dark hallway that was illuminated by the bolts of lighting.

As I approached the living room, I could hear small strange noises, as if someone was running around. As I came closer, it came to view that a very idiotic ginger was chasing a poor cat who just wanted to be alone.

"TIM! Oh, thank god you're here! I got so scared and I think Ringo is scared too! She won't stop running away from me, as if something was chasing her. Anyways, what are you doing up and what's on your arms?" Matt rambled.

I immediately pulled down my sleeves and coughed up an excuse. "I-I was painting, yeah."

"Oh! Can I see what you painted?"

"It's not finished—"

My sentence was cut short when Matt clung onto me at the speed of sonic. "Matt, what the heck are you doing?"

"The thunder outside! It's scary!"

"No it's not."

"Yes it is! The loud noises are hurting my ears!"

"The only thing hurting my ears is your voice. Go back to bed."

Matt gave me a uncomfortable look. "B-But, I'm scared... Can you stay with me?"

"No."

"Please?" Matt whined, slowly intertwining his legs with mine. I placed a hand on his chest and pushed him away from me. I tried to cover my anger as much as possible. "Matt, I don't want to stay with you. Go to Edd or something."

Matt clung back onto my arm, desperately tugging onto it. "C'mon, Tim, one night won't hurt!"

Wow, he completely dodged my question.

"Matt, answer my question—"

"I promise I won't annoy you, just stay with me!"

"Answer my question—"

"I'll just hop onto your bed and go to sleep, but you have to stay with me—"

I shoved Matt away from me, anger rising up. "Matt, shut the fuck up and answer my goddamn question."

I didn't know why was wrong. I was just mad. Matt was scared, couldn't I just comfort him?

No. Then he'd get more attached. He'd want to hang around with me and wanted to be by my side the entire time.

Trust me, I don't want that.

Matt stared at me, afraid I might hurt in again. "W-what was your q-question?"

Everything about him infuriated me. Why is he so stupid? Why is he so childish? Why is he alive?

Did I say that right? Heh, sorry, I meant to say why am I alive?

I literally just want to jump off a bridge or hang myself from the tallest building in the world, no matter where it is.

Matt just wants to make me kill myself even more.

"Never mind." I choked out, storming off into my room, leaving a terrified Matt.

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After I heard Tom's room slam shut, I raced out, trying to find Matt before he burst out into an ocean of tears.

Whenever it came to natural disasters or terrible weather like the thunderstorm we're having right now, Matt would be pretty sensitive.

He would usually come to me, but I was so pissed at Tom, I'm positive he's pissed with me.

Hopefully, Tord can fix him. He wants nothing to do with me and I know if I don't even try, I'm not a good friend, but so I can't deal with Tom right now when he knows what he's doing is wrong, but he won't stop—

My thoughts were cut short when I was engulfed by Matt's embrace. I didn't hesitate to rub his back and whisper soothing sounds into his ear as his body shook furiously.

"It's ok, you're safe now."

"You'll be fine, it's ok."

Matt looked up and smiled gingerly. "Thanks, Edd. I don't know what I'll do without you." then buried his head into the crook of my neck.

We pulled away after a large bolt of lighting shone through the windows. "Wanna head back to my room?" I asked, intertwining my hand with his. He nodded almost immediately and followed me to my room.

We laid down on my bed, Matt's face buried into my chest as I patted his red hair. "Goodnight, Matt." I whispered, resting my head into my pillow.

Matt mumbled to what I assumed to be a 'goodnight'.

I sighed and closed my eyes slowly, hearing Matt whisper one last thing before falling asleep.

" I    love   you "
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