Thoughts

You

I need you
Like a son needs her mom
Like a flower needs water
Like we need the sun

You calm my terrible thoughts
The heartbeats that are about to explode
They go silent until no word is told

My nerves
My shivering
My shaking hands
You calm me until everything comes to an end

I wish I didn't need you
I wish I could feel free every time
But the less I want you
The more I feel the need
Of a toxic substance
That will just make me weak

Why am I like this?
My bright smile always looks so real
And though it is real
The pain remains like the sun when it sets

I need a loving hand
A kind friend
A honest heart
So that I won't be lonely and I can move on

Drugs and alcohol are not options now
They're demons that destroy my beautiful soul
However you, you are my only hope

Please remain by my side
Be patient to this little mess
That someday will bring you
Lots of happiness