Love and Betrayal [COMPLETED]

Mistaken

While driving, Ryan and I didn't talk at all. It felt awkward and tense. I feel like I'm in a room without oxygen. I drag my hand towards the cup holder to take the mineral bottle but touched Ryan's hand which is already on the bottle.

Shit Shit Shit...

He turned to see me. I quickly take back my hand.

''Drink it first'', he offered.

''h...huh... n...no. thanks'', my words are trembling as my body.

I joined my hands and put it on my laps.

''See....what happened in that place....'', he started.

''Please... don't bring it right now'', I cut him out without looking at him. 

I don't want to talk about it right now. 

How embarrassing

Ryan didn't say anything. He was concentrating on driving.

''She loved you.'', I spoke after some time. Ryan glances at me while driving. I sighed.

''That girl, Jeanne.... She had a big crush on you since young. I... knew about it recently when I read her diary'', I turned to see Ryan. He looked shocked.

''She talked a lot about you in there. She secretly stalks you, took pictures of yours and know everything about you. When I first saw you, I felt my heart racing. I felt some kind of feelings towards you. That's why when you rejected me at the club, I felt terrible and my heart aches terribly. I don't know why but I can't stop thinking about you that time. and I know why is that now. She still loves you.'', I say it.

''Though she moves on I guess she can't forget about you. Maybe that's why.... I feel attracted to you. She wants you to be with her.''

''How about you?'', Ryan suddenly asked me. His tone changed to serious too.

''I.... don't know'', I reply him.

''So, you mean you are being with me because of her?'', he asked me tensely.

I nodded my head.

''Damn'', Ryan looked frustrated while hitting the steering. He suddenly drives his car speedily.

''what are you doing?'', I yelled at him.

What happened to him?

''RYAN, STOP!!'', I close my eyes when I see a truck in front of us. Ryan back to the lane and he reduce his speeds.

''What the hell are you doing? Huh? You want to kill us both?'', I shout.

''I wish so.'', his eyes looked at me furiously.

''What you mean by that?'', I get angry.

''So, you are just using me June!! How can you simply tell me that you are being with me for her?'', Ryan shrieked.

''You always said that you are not her. Now, what happened?'', he questioned me.

He was right. 

what happens to me?

I run my fingers over my forehead while bowing down.

''I'm sorry...'', I could only say those words. I felt bad.

Ryan then didn't talk anything. We arrived at my house. We found out that my aunt is in California. Ryan said that he will go alone there. I wanted to follow him but he says he wanted to be alone. 

I feel like I break his heart. Jackson said that this time he will go along with Ryan since Julia's eyes successfully operated. Now, we need to wait for few days to open the bandages. So, he said that he got plenty times and asked me to accompany Julia. They depart at night. I was with my sister in the hospital. 

My mind keeps thinking about Ryan.

I made a mistake

I suppose to not say that I'm being with him because of her. 

God, I missed Theo so much. Where is he now? 

I take out my phone to call him. The line goes but no one picks up the call. I feel sad. Suddenly my phone rang. I see Theo's number. I was overwhelmed. I walked out from Julia's room to attend the call.

''Theo'', I call him happily.

''Ya Jeanne, how are you?''

''I'm fine'', I told him with a dull voice.

''No you are not. Your voice doesn't say so. What happened?''

''Theo....'', my voice starting to croaked. I couldn't hold my tears.

''Sit down first'', he instructs me with a soft voice. I sat on the bench there.

''Calm down, June. Exhale'', I do what he said.

''Now, tell me what happened'', he asked.

''I hurt Ryan. I told him that I'm being with him because of Jeanne. I found out that Jeanne loved Ryan when I read her diary. I supposed to not say that but I don't know what to say. I'm so confused.'', I sobbed.

''Then, tell him how you feel now. He will understand it'', his voice assured me.

''Really?'', I asked him like a kid waiting for a lollipop.

''He is a rational guy. He will understand your feeling'', he assured.

I feel relieved. Relieved a lot.

''Theo...'', I called him.

''Yes''

''I missed you so much'', I really missed him.

He doesn't say anything for few seconds.

''Please come back soon.'', I told him.

''Ok'', he replied.

''Take care'', he hangs up after that. I let a sigh. After a talk with him, I feel much better.

Ya, I need to talk with Ryan.