𝙙𝙖𝙙𝙙𝙮 𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙪𝙚𝙨 | 𝙨𝙞𝙡𝙡𝙞𝙚

07;waking up alone

(There's music cause these chapters are lonesome)

Where am I? I wonder when my eyes open. I looking down at the cold dead grass. Looking around I realize that I'm still on the hill. All the memoirs come crashing down on me like a wave. A shiver runs up my body's I sit up bringing my knees do my chest crying in pain because my wrist still hurts. I remember my screaming and them holding me down and then cutting into my wrist. I feel this weird feeling in my stomach. Coming up my throat I lean over beside me throw my guts up (not literally) I sit up wiping my mouth. Spitting on the ground trying to get the acid flavor vomit out of my mouth. I manage to stand earning a big loud groan come out of my mouth.

I slowly walk my Why to my house, but then I speed up realizing I still have dried up blood all over my wrist and hands. I get in my warm dark lonely house running up the stairs to my bathroom, I turn the shower in to warm. I strip from my cloths stepping in the shower. Cleaning the dirt and dried up blood. 10 minuets later I get put wrapping a towel around me. I walk to my room the temperature difference hitting me like a ton of bricks.

I look down to notice blood lightly running down my wrist. They look bad.

I run over to grab some bandages wrapping it around my wrist. I finally make my way back to my room putting in so Nike sweatpants and a black long sleeve shirt. Pulling up my fuzzy white socks. I hear the ding of the door bell. I sigh running down the stairs opening the door to reveal Sadie. We make eye contact but I just look down and wait for her to say something.

"Hi" she whispers "look.." she try's to continue "I was thinking, about everything I did to you. And.." she starts to cry causing me to look up with pitty "I'm sorry for ruining your life! I'm sorry for the names I called you! I'm sorry that I drove you to depression! And I'm most of all sorry that I'm in love with you but I hate myself for ruining it!" She starts to wheeze so I wrap my arms around her small frame kissing her head.

"Look I didn't come here for you to forgive me but I came her to ask you if we can start new" she pulls away smiling. I smile moving her cherry red haired out of her face, slightly drying her tears. I pull her down connecting our lips. The kiss was short and passionate. I pull away slightly lying my head on her forehead.

"I would love to start over"