Poetry

Lemme tell you something

Yeah, I gotta say like a month ago
I was talking to fans
And one of them pulled me aside and said
"We never met but I swear that you know who I am
I been through a lot
I don't know how to express it to people
Don't think that I can but I got that Addicted to Hurting CD on rotation
That's real for me Adam, you do not understand"
It's crazy for me
Peopls hit me up, say they slitting they wrists on the daily
These poems is more than you think
Don't book me for just entertainment, it's entertaining
Hearing these people, they telling their clicks
My poetry is violent, you gotta be kidding me
I guess that your definition of violence and mine
Are something that we look at differently
How do you picture me ah?
Want me to smile, you want me to laugh
You want me to walk in the spotlight with a smile on my face
When I'm mad and put on a mask, for real though
I mean, what you expect from me?
I'm tryna do this respectfully
They say that life is a race
I know my problems'll probably catch up eventually
I do my best to be calm
These the parts of my life that'll never see, woo
I am aware it's aggressive
I am not here for acceptance
I don't know what you expect here
But what'd you expect when asked to meet or talk to me ah?
This girl I once knew looked me in the face
And told me her life's full of drama
Said that her dad is abusive
Apparently he likes to beat on her mama
I got so angry inside
I wanted to tell her to give me his number
But what you gon' do with it right?
You gon' hit him up then he'll start hitting her harder
That's real
These people , they read these poems
With tears in they're  eyes
Imagine someone looking at you
And saying your poetry's the reason that they are alive
Sometimes, I don't know how to handle it
This type of life isn't glamorous
This ain't an act for the cameras
You see me walk on these streets but have no idea what I'm dealing with after it
I put it all in the open
This is the way that I cope with all my emotion
I'm taking pictures with thousands of people
But honestly, I feel like nobody knows me
I'm trying to deal with depression
I'm trying to deal with the peer pressure
How you gon' tell me my writing  does not have a message
When I'm looking out at this 1k views, full of people I know I affected?
Ah, I got some things in my life, I know I should let 'em go
Let me jot it down, let me take a mental note
What you think about me
That doesn't worry me
I know I handle some things immaturely
I know that I need to grow in maturity
I ain't gon' walk in this town in front of these people
And act like I live my life perfectly
That doesn't work for me
A Jehovah's Witness is not the definition of a perfect me, woo
I ain't the type to be quiet
I ain't gon' sit here in silence
If I wouldn't say what I say to your face
Then I promise you I wouldn't say it in private
I am not lying
People go off on my page and I'm trying to quit the replying
But this is ridiculous
I'm passionate man, I really mean what I'm writing
You want me to keep it 100? Okay, I'll keep it 100
I see a whole lot of talking on socials
But honestly, I don't see nothing in public
I kinda love it, yeah
"Why don't you write us some happy poems?"
That would be awesome
All your poetry is moody and dark, Stars (Adam)"
Don't get me started
You wanna know what it's like if you met me in person?
Listen to my verses
This poems is not just for people
Who sit in the pews and pray at the churches
I won't reject it
I don't expect everyone to respect it
I don't expect you to get my perspective

Becuase you ain't me. Some of you don't know what I been through. I think that some people don't understand that people change. And that people focus on what I've done and who I was, and they don't focus on who I am and what I'm doing. I mean come on guys this stuff is real for me I've experienced this I'm just trying to write down what I experience. I use this as an outlet and to show people that they aren't alone. And if you have a problem with that then well that sucks for you cuz you know, I'm just very Carefree person.