"Living Young and Wild but Unfree"

chapter 1

I’ll make this simple…so here it goes. 18th birthday ko na bukas but still hindi pa ako pumapasok for college. Almost 2 years na nung grumaduate ako sa highschool. Haha. Narealize ko lg, baliw na ata ako eh. Since grumaduate ako, never pumasok sa isip ko ang pagpunta sa university para mag-aral, like, never. Punto ko lang, bakit pa? My family is unbelievably Rich. Designer si mom, may-ari naman si pop ng isang kumpanyang nagpoproduce ng mga clothes and shoes mom designed. Si kuya naman on the other hand, successful model na sa Europe. So I thought hindi na kakailanganin pang mag-college. Take note, dati pa yun..:( That was before I heard the people call be “brat.” I secretly love writing. I know madidisappoint lang parents ko if malaman nilang wala akong kahit kakarampot na hilig para sa “styling.” Dati pa, I decided na di nalang siguro ako magcollege and pursue writing if lungkot lang naman ang dala nito sa parents ko. *sigh* complications, Lots and lots of complications. This past 2 years, I tried to find remedies to ease those complications. Shopping, shopping, and shopping. Sino nga bang tatamarin sa pamimili ng latest trends sa world of fashion ngayon? Mom thought I like doing it ,ang magshopping! Sino nga naman ang babaeng ayaw nun? Ako lang siguro. Bakit ba kasi di ko masabi-sabi na ayaw ko ang world of styling? Why!?

            But wait, hindi ba’t debut ko na bukas? Why am i still stuck with all my personal issues? Hindi ba dapat atupagin ko muna beauty rest ko? Anu ba!? Bat ba tilang may mali!? Mali sa buhay ko? Mali sa sarili ko? Ewan! Lord, tulong naman jan oh! (sabay pikit).

This time, I know nananaginip ako. I’m sure with that. Hinding-hindi ako nagkakamali. All I can here is “go somewhere else and achieve your dreams.” Then just a slip of time, sunlight already touches my face. Wow. Was that the answer of the help asked from god? Weird. Too weird. First time kong nanaginip ng ganun ha. Puro salita lang, walang nakikita.walang tao, lungar at kung ano pa man.yun lang…boses ng isang lalaki.

Great Hills! Birthday ko na pala! Hep hep hep, I’m the queen of the day so ako ang masusunod ngayon! Bwahahaha (evil laugh). Since nagkaisip ako, every birthday ko, I refuse to have nannies as nakasanayan. But as usual, my mom wouldn’t allow it. It’s because she knows I’m not that responsible when it comes to myself. Nagtaka na lang ako this day, bat wala si Maria (my personal yaya)? Si Rosie (my ethics tutor and fashion consultant)?. WOW! Himala mula sa langit!? How come mom answered my annual birthday request!? Shock tuloy ako! Hihihi. I love that! Wait lang, ano bang gagawin ko!? Is it to go to the washroom? or to prepare my clothes? Or to eat breakfast? ooh! It’s already freakin’ me out!