"Living Young and Wild but Unfree"

Chapter 3

Almost 3 pm na ng matapos sila sa pag memake-up sakin. Rosie called up at sinabing “be here in your mom’s clubhouse by 6 pm. Magsisimula ang party by 6:30 so anjan na yung driver sa labas.” Ay, tapos na ba ang maliligaya at malalayang oras ko? Bat tila ang bilis naman? Pwede paextend? They fixed my hair for about 7 minutes, too quick, I know. Gusto ko simple lang so last week I proposed that my hair should be nothing but hanged. Sinunod naman nila pero nilagyan parin ng bulaklak sa may tenga. *sigh.  I went straight sa fitting room and wore the gown my mom designed. Natuwa ako last time na ipinakita nya sakin yung design. Alam niya kasi na gusto ko simple lang. When I wore it, napansin kong totoong diamonds pala yung nakakabit sa harapan ng damit. Wow ha, simple nga naman yung design pero ewan ko nalang pagdating sa presyo ha. Mom tlaga! I wore the pair of shoes my brother’s friend gave. It matches the blue gown that I am wearing. I appreciated how comfortable the shoes is. It perfectly fitted my feet. How great……Maria was already with me when I was in the car. 4:30 na nung tumungo kami sa resort. Nagutom ako bigla kaya nagpabili ako ng pizza sa drive-thru. Alam kong magdedebate pa kami ni Maria dahil dito but thank God birthday ko so wala siyang ibang ginawa kundi sundin ang request ko. I already finished the pizza when we arrived at the clubhouse. 15 minutes pa bago mag 6 so I’ve got time pa para magpost sa twitter, FB, IG, and all. Yey! Cause I still have this kind of freedom!  

I needed to sneak behind the room ‘cause mom doesn’t want my life to be broadcasted in the cyber world. At exactly 6:00 pm, Rosie checked out my get-up and wasn’t contented with how I looked. So she did some revisions. Bloody red lipstick was removed in my lips and replaced it with rose pink and was painted with lipgloss with glitters. Nagalit ako kasi pangit yung lasa ng gloss so pinalitan niya. Weird daw ako.so true. Gusto ko kasi cherry yung flavor. Wala lg. Trip ko lang lasahan. I still have this weirdness wih in me just like normal people does. :P she combed my hair. I asked her to blow dry my hair so she needed to comb it again.mehehe. My hair is pretty much oilier than anybody else so it must be regularly blow dried.

My heart was pounding hard when I approached the front door. That’s how I reacted when narinig ko ang mga tao sa loob ng function room na pumapalakpak. Narinig ko ang boses ng isang friend ni mom, I already knew na sya si Tita Andrea. Boses niya palang, alam ko na, siya yung tumawag sakin ng……. “BRAT.” Wow ha. Di porket wala akong ginawa this last 2 years kundi magshopping at magshopping eh spoiled brat na agad ako. Ayaw ko lang talagang masira ang tiwala ng pamilya ko towards me. That’s all. My life is filled with complications so wla siyang karapatan to spread gossips including the description niya sakin bilang “Brat.” It hurts.

So let’s get back with the real deal, classical music starts when the door was opened for me. Mehe, I was glad pop playing the grand piano for me. I walked along the red carpet and noticed that our clubhouse changed so much. Apat na taon narin akong di nakakapunta rito. Ibang-iba na. mula puti, ay naging dilaw na ang walls. Doric foundations were replaced by Corinthian style. The ceiling was no longer concrete but glass. Giving the perfect view of the dark skies and showing the stars. Oh crap! Nahulog yung bulaklak galling sa ulo ko. No! naalala ko tuloy yung turo ni Rosie, when something fell off while you are  the center of attraction, walk strait as if nothing happened. It would be improper to sit on the floor and get the thing that you dropped for it is unethical and insulting to do such thing. So no choice, lakad lang ng lakad… 18 roses, here I come! Ang una kong nakasayaw is Seth, 5th grade Crush. 2nd, 1st year suitor, Jacob. 3rd, second year suitor, Alex. 4th, my cousin, Luis. 5th, my brother’s best friend, Ian. 6th, uncle Dan. 7th, Uncle Mike. 8th, my pop’s best friend, Uncle Andrew. 9th, my 6th grade crush, Dino. 10th, Cola’s brother, Walter. 11th, my high school tutor and at the same time distant relative, kuya John. 12th is Anthony, a close friend of mine. 13th is teacher Francis, my 4th year adviser. 14th is Tristan, son of my mom’s assistant. 15th is Paco, my rival when it comes to being the top 2 of the class. 16th, is Charlie. He models our products and a famous artist in the Philippines. 17th is my pop. Finally, Cola. I specially requested that as special thanks for him. Siya na naging karamay ko all this time. My childish tears and laughter were shared with him. He has been my comforter in times of sadness, loneliness, anger, bitterness and all. So I awe him that much.

As “Fix You” by Coldplay continued, Cola and I danced. A slight smile escaped from my mouth when I realized na hindi lang pala sa movies nangyayari tong feeling nato. Yung feeling na bumabagal ang lahat sa paligid mo. Or worse, humihinto. Oh dear, this feeling pinches my inner goddess. I closed my eyes, enjoying this feeling….. this moment….. ‘cause I know it’ll end soon. And as expected, the outro of the song approached and a slight sigh was all I can give. The end of fantasy.