This is a song that I have been reciting in my head for a few months now. I made a terrible mistake; more than one. It was literally a case of my past catching up with me and pushing me to the brink, getting me into a serious amount of trouble. I got angry; still am but less. Wrong was done on both sides but they dragged my past into it and rather delicate details about myself. So ........ here's a song that helps to sum it all up.
ThoraDesaga1 )O(
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Sitting in a corner
Or at a table, all alone
You look at me and see
A loner, with nothing to atone
Split from the rest
Thinking I'm the best
You think
(You think)
That what you see defines me
(Defines me)
You think
(You think)
What you know about me makes me who I am
(Who I am)
You're wrong
You're wrong
You're wrong
I'm sorry but you should know
I'm not gonna give in
To this stupid game
I'm not going to let this go
Away with the wind
You think my past is my definition
You think my past speaks for me
But I'm afraid
I fear
You will have to pardon my past
As I have done
Pardon my past
Pardon my past
I'm not perfect; then again, no one is
I made mistakes, I know
But I'm afraid
I fear
I can't change who I am
Can't change how I grew up
Pardon my past
Pardon my past
Do you
Do you really want to know
What my life was like
How I woke up day after day
How I slept night after night
Do you really want to see
What it did to my family
What it did to me
You're not the gods
You have no right to judge
Why you
Why do you have a grudge
Is it cos I'm nothing like you
Cos I am not your nationality
Cos I'm smarter than you
Before you judge, look at yourself
Why should I pardon my past
When you're the one in need of it most
My friend
Would you grow a pair
Did you know what you did
You turned my life into a pear
You opened your mouth
They listened to you
You damaged my family
And damaged me
I'm not saying I'm innocent
But you brought my past into it
You brought my flaws into it
This says more about you than it does 'bout me
You may won that battle
But you'll lose the war
You're far away now but not for long
Why should
I pardon my past
Why should
I be ashamed
You have
No right to judge
You're not divine
I'm not scared of you
Why are
You so sure of yourself
You are
Not different from me
We all
Have things in our pasts
So that doesn't mean
You can go around and target mine
I'm not
Going to pardon my past
Pardon my past
Pardon my past
These days I sit and ponder
I think about it and wonder
What I would be without the past I have
Would I better or would I be worse
Would I be blessed or cursed
The truth is
I can't imagine it any other way
Not really
(Not really)
It was fated to happen
One way or another
Why, I am not so sure but
I can just feel it inside
It was meant to be this way
No point crying
No point weeping
No point grumbling
There is no point in pardoning
Pardoning your past
Pardon my past
For it's shaped me
Pardon my past
For it's created me
Pardon my past
If you don't like me
Pardon my past
YOU ARE READING
No Longer Innocent (Complete Album)
PoetryGothic Rose's sequel. More songs but some are a little more to the Dark Side this time