Childish

Chapter 3

Joey POV
I pick myself up off the shower floor and walk over to the bathroom sink still dripping wet, I look at myself in the mirror and think, what happened to the old me, the fun me, the better me.

I look at the razor on the bench and then look at the scars on my wrist
"One more wouldn't hurt right?"
I pick up the razor and take out the blade. I put it up to my wrist and take another look at myself in the mirror, why do I do this to myself. It's just adding on the pain. I slam the blade down on the bench and fall back on the ground.

"WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?"
I hear a knock on the door
"Occupied" I say with no expression
"I'm coming in" Meghan says opening the door
"MEGHAN IM NAKED!" I shout slamming the door back and locking it
"Sorry sorry" I hear her voice fade as she walks away

Your probably wondering why Meghan is here, well it's my birthday, she always shows up on my birthday.
I'm yet again, surrounded by darkness.
I pick the blade up off the floor and put it in the bin as well as the rest of the razor. I wrap my towel around my waste and breath in deeply.
I exhale and pick up another razor, not for cutting, but for shaving I put the cream on my face and fill the sink with water, I run the blade across my face feeling It press on my skin. I carefully shave across my cheekbone and down to my chin, then finish up by washing the extra cream off my face and put down the razor. I dry my hair and put clothes on. I put my short sleeve on this time but put a jacket over it, I put on underwear and skinny jeans. I walk out and flop on my bed, I open my phone and see I have 3 new messages from -Unknown

Hey pussy
Go suck dick
Kys

I already know who it is, but now I have to annoy them by correcting them.

It's ky, kys is referring to kill your self but yourself is 1 word, check yourself before you wreck yourself

I close off messages and go onto Instagram, I scroll through the Instagram explore page seeing diy videos and slime videos, they never interest me though, I go back into the home page and look at all the story's, I think about Daniel and what he would have on his story, so I did what I did, I searched his name up..

'Daniel preda'

It comes up with

'Misterpreda'

I click on it to see what I thought, Daniel and his friends
I click on his story and it's nothing bad, I click next and it's a selfie of him and his brother
I click next and it takes me back to his profile, guess he only had a few selfies
I put my phone in my pocket and walk down stairs to get breakfast

"You still gay?" My mum asks
"Yep" I reply
She asks me everyday hoping for me to answer 'no'
"Your chest feel ok?" She asks
"Yes" I reply rolling my eyes
I few months ago I was put into hospital for open heart surgery, I don't know what caused it but something happened.
I put my bowl in the sink and walk back upstairs to brush my teeth, I get up to the bathroom and look at the razor in the bin, I look back at the mirror and brush my teeth.
I walk back downstairs and grab my keys
"Bye mum" I say walking out the door
"Bye" she says back
Today's going to suck
Just like every other day.