Supernatural Love (Sam Winchester x Reader)

Chapter 25

^^Edited: 1/21/18  

"I acted like it wasn't a big deal when really it was breaking my heart." ~weheartit.com

      Sam, was gone. He was physically there, but his mind was gone. He couldn't function without you and to think you were just gone with one year to live, made it that much worse for him and everybody else.
        Bobby wasn't doing much better than Sam. Bobby was more angry and drunk then he had ever been. He was pooling double duty of research to find a way to kill or prevent hellhounds.
        Dean, well Dean was beating himself up about it. He felt it was his fault. He wasn't happy you sold your soul, yet felt guilty for being happy you did it at the same time.
        B/f/n, well she/he was devastated. She/he love you almost as much as Sam. She/he was trying every possible thing to track you down.

       It was torture to have to hide from them, but what else could you do? If you returned they would treat you differently. They would also try and keep the hellhound away only to end up dying. If you didn't return you'd be able to hunt on your own and not risk them getting hurt. When you weighed the options. It seemed best to keep away. It would be best for everyone. Sam could move on in the span of a year and maybe find himself someone. Dean and B/f/n could fall more in love and Bobby could find someone without having to worry about you. It was logical to stay gone, but it still felt so bad.

"Why would she do this? She has to know we could prevent a hellhound attack." Sam said near tears
"Sam, I'm so sorry." B/f/n said
B/f/n and Sam were left alone while Dean and Bobby left to get more supplies. Sam was lost, B/f/n was more depressed than ever.
"We're all broken." B/f/n stated when Bobby and Dean came in
"But not shattered," Dean responded
Dean seemed to be handling it the best. He wasn't as broken as the others. It wasn't because he didn't love you, he just had a different way of showing it.
"Any progress?" Bobby grumbled
"No," Sam responded
Bobby only grumbled more and when to find more lore, that let's face it was probably useless.
"What are we going to do?" B/f/n asked

   It was the kind of question that made everything come into focus. It was like for a brief few seconds everything was paused. Then it was like crashing into the ground from space.
"We're going to keep trying, we have to keep trying," Sam answered
You know those answers you receive from your parents when everything sucks? It feels good to hear it and maybe for a minute or two everything feels ok, but nothing really changes.
"How do we keep trying when she doesn't want our help? How do you?" B/f/n asked trying to find a way to hope again
"You just do, you don't give up on family and you sure as hell don't give up on Y/n," Dean said
"Why can't anything ever be easy," Sam stated walking outside to watch the night sky.

      Heartache sometimes it was a good learning tool and sometimes it wasn't. Heartache teaches not to love, fear of loving, and fear of hurt. It makes you scared. Heartache helps you learn to trust and not to trust, but it can also be used as leverage. 

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         Never would you of thought of having to hide from your family. Knowing it was for the better good, you continued on like you never lost half of yourself. You hunted, you drank, you 'tried' not to sleep around, and you got into many fights. You thought, altho you wouldn't admit it, that yourself destructive behavior would get you killed before the hellhound could reach you. It truly was horrible. Everything you've ever done will mean nothing in a few months. Not the progress you made with loving Sam, not the progress of becoming a legendary hunter, and definitely not your pranking war. It would all add up to nothing in the end. Everything would mean nothing.