I Think I'm Being Followed: Chapter 4
Matt:
Having Sarah in my arms like that felt amazing. I couldn't help but like her, she's gorgeous and funny, but for some reason, even whilst I was holding her like that my mind kept drifting back to Jane. I mean I know she's out with Jack but come on? Jack and Jane? It's never going to work out! She needs someone in control, and confident and sure of himself, someone like...me.
I just couldn't imagine them together. It doesn't seem to fit in my head, but who am I to say that? I don't have any sort of claim over her, but she's so beautiful, and Jack is just, not. They wouldn't fit together, like those couples you see in the streets where the girl is so much better looking than the guy, and you just cant understand how they ever got together. It's not that im shallow or vain, it's that she was my first love. The first girl I ever thought I could spend the rest of my life with. And now that im about to lose her to my little brother I cant really take it.
And then there's Sarah, I mean I've known her for a while, although she never seems to remember me. She is great, I think we could really have something, but I just keep thinking about Jane, and as I was standing there with Sarah, someone equal to Jane in both looks and personality, - maybe even better - I just couldn't keep myself focused on her.
She's teasing me, and I like it, she knows exactly what she's doing and she's got the confidence, that's the best type of girl to have.
It's not like I don't want her, I do, and very much so, I just wouldn't feel right going any further.
Yeah I know, that sounds so anti-me, the 'Sex-God', but I'm not like that.
When Jack and I first got here I had no idea I would end up feeling like this, I thought that I would be fine with the two of them, and in a way I am, I just don't like the thought of the two of them getting close, as close as she was to me.
I need to stop thinking about Jane and focus on Sarah, the amazing girl, who wants me.
I just hope its got nothing to do with the reputation I have.
At this point it was getting difficult to control myself, the girl really does know what she's doing, and I, the typical red blooded male was responding just the way she wanted it, attempting to pull away didn't seem to work either since she stood on her tip-toes and began to kiss me, not a I-just-want-to-get-laid kind of kiss either, but a real kiss, one that left me gasping for breath, and instead of wanting to push her away I wanted to have her closer, all thoughts of Jane had gone, replaced with her.
Anxious for more of this feeling, I leant down and kissed her again, wanting, needing to get closer, not wanting to let go.
A small moan escaped my lips, and all I could think of was her, it really did feel as if it was just the two of us right now. I knew I was letting my hormones and instincts get the better of me, but I couldn't help it.
Somehow we ended up against the counter, and I quickly picked her up and placed her on top of it, her legs snaked around me, allowing me to get ever closer I was sure that if this wasn't what she wanted, she would stop me.
Feelings that I couldn't explain came over me, and I found myself never wanting to stop being so close to her, never wanting this to end.
If only I could forget Jane, but she was still there, at the back of my mind, and it was all I could do to keep myself in the moment with Sarah.
She felt my hesitation, and pulled away from me, looking puzzled, I wondered if she was having doubts about me, about what we were doing.
Almost without meaning to, my hand started to trace the outline of her back, lightly my fingertips brushed her spine, ending at the back of her neck.
Her hair covered my arm and as I withdrew my hand the movement made my nerves tingle, breathing heavily, yet wanting to keep myself in the moment I met her eyes, the artificial kitchen light was reflected there, but still intensified the deep green.
My hand was now on her face, cupping her chin, travelling along, my fingers brushed her lips, and lightly, she kissed them.
She mover her hands to my hips and used both of them to take off my shirt, then run her nails along my back, goose bumps arose there, intensifying the feeling, the atmosphere was electric and slowly yet with determination I began to kiss her again, I stopped briefly, only long enough to take off her top, enjoying the feeling of my bare skin against hers.
I liked her body shape, she wasn't stick thin, she had curves, a real woman.
I saw her eyes glance at the bedroom and knew what she wanted, I knew that some would say I had taken advantage, but right now I didn't care, I gave in to what we were both feeling.
I lifted Sarah, and carried her towards her bedroom.
