Jack.
I just keep thinking back to last night, I realised, she's scared of something. If only I knew what.
I've had time to think this morning. I saw Matt leave; he probably ended up in bed with Sarah, Sex God Strikes Again.
Sarah left about an hour later, she was upset about something, probably Matt. Some guy came over and she left with him. Maybe she's like Matt, juggling many-a-man.
The perfect creature next to me; I couldn't ask for anything more, I'm biting back the euphoria, every breath she takes sends shivers down my spine, I know this is right, I feel it, we're meant to be. Everything changed last night, the dynamic shifted, no longer am I the stranger that pines for his lady's attention. I have taken it upon myself to become her protector, the knight in shining armour; I will shield her from her pain. If only I knew, what troubles my gentle lady?
Even now, her peaceful sleep is disturbed, her eyelids flutter, and her expression shows me unease. If only I could take away the bad dreams, rid her of her nightmares.
I relieve the tension in my muscles, tension I hadn't realised was there, and shifted position. The time? Unknown, no clock visible anywhere, I feel my pockets for my phone, and see a text message from my dad, something about a family dinner. This however makes me think of Matt, I text him 'Why'd you leave?'
I was starting to fall asleep when he answered me, 'I don't know, tell her I'm sorry.'
Oh, as if I want to get involved! I tell her she's not her, but don't mention the guy; jealousy is never a nice thing, especially when Matt's involved..
Matt never did like to share, it was always all about him, he gets everything, but if anyone ever took his stuff, the monster would rear its ugly head. Yes I know, inferiority complex.
I shake the thoughts, I don't like to get angry at Matt, all the best memories I have, are always because of him.
Which is also the reason I knew I had to leave Jane, not forever just for now, I know that leaving without a goodbye is Matt's way of doing things, but I feel its for the best, my goddess would be better off without me, waking up with me next to her would probably bring the worst memories of last night back to her, and I don't want that. Being so close to perfection and tearing myself away is much harder than anyone would probably understand.
In one night my world changed, but I was open to it, I was ready and waiting for Jane, my ideal woman to become part of my world, but she was not as receptive as me, whatever it is that came back to haunt her yesterday, the fear that made her rush back home, and drag me along with her is not something I can erase, and I know that if she wakes up, ill demand an explanation, because im so desperate to know.
Almost as if her sleeping form senses my intentions, Jane rolls towards me, her arm outstretched, it lightly bends itself around my waist.
I feel my resolve start to crumble...surely it's best if I left? Would she really want to see me? No. I need to go, with a heavy heart I lift her hand, I take to my lips and kiss her fingertips. Perfect gentleman.
I gather my things, the coat I dropped, and my wallet and keys.
Im heading for the door, when I glance back; Jane's starting to stir, I need to be quick. I make it to the door, open it lightly; I start to slither through the small opening when I hear my name. 'Jack, don't go.' It's barely audible, nothing more then a whisper, but it's enough to make me stay.
