𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 ✧ 𝐝.𝐭.

juke jam ; grayson dolan

smut: uh, sorry?

inspired by: juke jam by chance the rapper & justin bieber

lyric: maybe you and i were meant to be maybe, i'm crazy.

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grayson's pov:

it hurt to see them together.

i loved her.

and i still do.

but when she's with him she was happier, and I guess i couldn't do that.

she didn't know i liked her. and she still doesn't know.

and i want to keep it that way.

i would be embarrassed.

and she probably didn't feel the same way.

we were close.

but we drifted when she started to date him.

and hurt.

we wouldn't talk like we used to.

then she was cheated on.

yes, i was worried about her mental health.

she gets very self conscious about herself.

she wonders if she wasn't enough,

if she isn't pretty,

how she dressed,

or if she was too clingy.

she loses her self confidence.

i know these things because of her ex boyfriends.

she's had two.

and i guess you could say i helped her go through all of this.

she never deserves to be hurt,

she's the most beautiful, brave, honest person i know.

if it wasn't for her than i wouldn't be happy this past year.

she was the reason i smiled, laughed, and travelled more.

i've always tried to hide my feelings.

and i think i succeeded.

she deserves better, she's done nothing wrong in this damn world.

she deserves the world.

i'm sorry that i lied to you guys,
this imagine kinda talks about how i've been lately,
i lose my self confidence easily
i don't know, i just kinda hate myself at times.
there's a bunch of things going on in my life right now,
my grandpa had a heart attack last night,
thank the lord he didn't pass.
we've been trying to call him and spend our time with him.
and i've been crying all day,
just hoping wouldn't pass,
he's taught me so many things,
and i'm so glad i have him in my life.
me and my brother love him dearly.
and we don't wanna lose our grandpa.
enough of my life problems,
i don't think you care but,
just kinda wanted to let people know that you're not alone.
everyone goes through the same thing once in their life.
anyways,
at least i updated this book..?
alright, peace.