𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 ✧ 𝐝.𝐭.

tangerine dreams ; ethan dolan

smut: nope.

inspired by: tangerine dreams by charlie puth.

lyric: the whole song.

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ethan's pov:

i play with my guitar strings.

you sing yourself to sleep at night, melodies behind closed doors.

i hear this beautiful sound every night at 10 o'clock.

i've gotten used to it now.

i'm over by the corner, listening to you from the second floor.

i hear a familiar sound coming from the 3rd floor.

a smile formed on my face.

i set my guitar right beside the couch.

i grab my phone from my coffee table and wrote down lyrics that were coming in to mind.

i open up the curtains, to hear the thunder and the rain.

it was a rainy night.

this type of nights are my favorite, they soothe you.

it's the best when you write a song.

maybe for a special someone.

we dropped off all the flowers to wash away the pain.

wanna go with you anywhere, anywhere.
wanna go with you anywhere.

she was an adventurous girl.

i knew this cause she was my friend.

we would go explore the city further at night when she couldn't sleep.

have small car rides around the city.

blasting music, enjoying ourselves.

she made me happy.

very happy.

i'm sorry i kept you waiting. i have no excuse.

there's no room for debating, why it took so long to get back to you.

but ever since she got her boyfriend, i've been avoiding her.

we wouldn't go on those amazing car rides anymore.

instead, she would do it with him.

but these tangerine dreams will not go away.

i build them right up and mold them out of clay. they just give me company.

she left me.

i would text her.

no text back.

we would see each other in the hallways.

i would smile at her.

no smile.

that damn smile i fell in love with, i never saw it again.

now i take everyday with a deep breath cause i found out the hard way when he left.

suffering silently.

she hurt me.

i guess she just didn't like me back.

wanna go with you anywhere.

these last couple days i haven't been myself cause, i know i won't be seeing you on commonwealth again.

i've been distant with my brother.

i've been distant with all of my friends.

i wasn't active on social media anymore.

i just focused on her.

commonwealth again.

these last couple days i haven't been myself cause, i know i won't be seeing you on commonwealth again.

commonwealth again.

but she moved away from me.

forever.

and i'll never forget her.

i'll never stop loving her.

i'll never stop loving y/n y/l/n.

never.

i don't have anything to say really,
just kinda pissed.
and sad.
and depressed.
ya know, the usual.
i always worry about the celebrities i love, fall in love with someone that's not me.
and that happened to me.
yay.
shawn and hailey.
what did i do to deserve this?
i was born in the wrong year?
god fuck me.
i mean,
i'm happy for him.
i'll never stop supporting him.
he's changed me so much.
he's my inspiration.
my passion for music grew.
just because of this man.
and now i'm crying yay.
but if they are dating,
i won't be mad,
i'll be happy for him.
i'll be happy that he found someone he loves.
i just hope hailey makes him happy.
he deserves the world.
and i support his decision.
if he dates her, oh well.
i'll have to deal with it.
i'll struggle to get used to it.
but all i want is for him to be happy.
i mean i cry over this man that doesn't even know who i am.
but i love him so much, i have to.
okay,
i'm done.
love you all. <3