Broken but mended (a Leico fan fiction)

Hate

Leo's POV

Its been a week since I last talked to Nico. Normally I wouldn't have a problem with not talking to someone for a week, but I miss talking to Nico so much I slept in bunker 9 so my siblings couldn't hear me cry. Hazel constantly glares at me during the meals, so I am guessing either Nico found out himself or Hazel ended up telling him. I have a feeling he hasn't read the letter.

I usually spent my free time in bunker 9 trying to work on some new gadgets, but my mind would end up wandering to Nico. I would end up burning whatever it was I was making and crying. I feel like a part of me is missing almost. I don't know how much longer I can go without talking to him, but from the way that he avoids me I'm pretty sure I am going to have to go a long time without talking to the Ghost King. I miss him, a lot.

Hazel is avoiding me as well. Obviously she's pretty pissed. Piper wont say anything about either of them when I ask, Jason doesn't know anything, Percy and Annabeth wont even talk to me, and Frank avoids me like Hazel and Nico. Now I know how Nico felt when he barely had anyone to talk to at camp, alone, completely alone. I could talk to my siblings, but even a child of Hephaestus can only take so much talk about tools and what not before it gets to be too much.

It was dinner time, but I skipped and went down to the beach area. Honestly I haven't had a full meal since last week, but oh well. I stared at the calm water and watched the moon slowly rise above it. Everything was calm, it's a nice thinking environment.

I brought all this upon myself, none of this would have happened if I would have thought about my words more carefully.

I think I know how Nico feels, not completely, but I think I understand. I think he feels like I don't care. He probably thinks that if I really cared I wouldn't have compared him to Calypso. That's not right though, its not that I don't care enough about him, its that I am just stupid. If I were smarter I wouldn't have said that, and I certainly wouldn't have originally thought it was a nice thing to say. I care about him more than anything in the entire world, I didn't mean to compare him to her.

"I brought you some food Valdez." A female voice said from behind me. I turned about and saw Hazel holding a plate of food. She sat down next to me. "You should eat."

"I'm not hungry." I mumbled.

"Valdez I know you are, you've barely eaten anything in the past week."

"Why do you care?" I snapped. She sighed.

"I may be mad at you for comparing my brother to that island girl, but you are still my friend Leo." She handed me the plate.

"I said I am not hungry." I muttered, pushing the plate away. She put it down next to her and looked at me.

"He's hurt Leo. After his little day and a half of being so happy it finally sunk in that you compared him to your ex. He just kind of sat on his bed looking off into space. The other night he kept muttering that you don't care about him because he knows you don't care about Calypso so when you had said that he was Calypso and you were the hero and stuff, he started talking about how you left the island. He doesn't think you meant it when you said you wouldn't leave him until he tells you to. He thinks he doesn't matter to you just like Calypso doesn't matter to you. Then he started freaking out saying how she doesn't matter to you anymore so he wont matter to you eventually. He hasn't read that letter either."

"Can you tell him to read it tonight please?" I asked, my voice cracking as I held back my sobs. "I am so, so, so sorry." With that I got up and ran back to my cabin. I don't care anymore if I cry in front of my brothers and sisters. They all looked at me weirdly.

"Don't any of you have anything better to do?" I yelled. They all walked out probably going to the camp fire. While they were all gone I let everything out, my anger with myself mostly, until I fell asleep.

Nico's POV

He doesn't care.

He doesn't care about Calypso, so he doesn't care about me.

I can't believe I was actually happy about what he said. I mean, yeah he basically said he likes me too, but he compared me to her. I haven't gotten out of bed since breakfast this morning because at this point I can't handle it anymore. 

"Why can't anything good just happen for once?! Why does everything always get fucked up?!" I yelled at nothing. I took my pillow and threw it across the room, I punched the wall, kicked over a stack of books that I kept next to my bed, I did everything I could to just let out my anger and frustration. "I should have just stayed in the underworld with my dad!" I yelled. I punched the wall some more, it seemed to help the most. I balled my fists up and took a few deep breaths, but I was still angry. The floor cracked open a little, I could see the skeleton hand reaching out of the hole but I took my Stygian iron sward and got rid of the skeleton about to crawl out. No more skeletons tried to break through the crack.

I continued to punch and kick things until I felt a pair of hands grab my shoulders.

"Nico calm down please!" Hazel pleaded as I punched the wall one last time.

"What?! What do you want?!" I yelled turning around to look at her. She looked scared.

"Read the letter." She handed me the letter that Leo had given her to give me. I snatched it from her hands and tore open the envelope and read the letter.

"H-Hazel." I handed the letter to her. She read it quickly. "I-"

"Tomorrow Nico, you will go and talk to him. You have to, I know you are upset but he is upset too. He hasn't eaten anything in a while and I'm starting to worry about him. He really hates himself for what he said. I've never seen him cry before, but when I talked to him tonight he just, he looked terrible. I think he's been crying all week and he still looked like he was about to cry. He really thought what he had said sounded like a good thing Nico, he had no idea he was comparing you to Calypso." Hazel said, tears in her eyes.

"I-I can't believe this entire time while I sat here crying about what he said, he was sitting wherever he was crying too. Hazel do you think he really does care then?"

"Nico I know he cares. He wouldn't be as upset as he is unless he did." I hugged her tightly.

"C-Can I have some time to myself please?" She nodded and left the cabin.

Knowing that he is hurt as well only makes things worse. 

I'm the reason he is crying every night.

I am the reason he feels the pain that no one should ever have to feel.

I put another person that I love into pain.

He shouldn't cry because of me, he is supposed to smile because of me.

I did it again, I did what he made me promise never to do again.

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A/N Well that took forever to write. Well enjoy this because the next update wont be until next weekend!